A little love story

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Night 1 of writing

1.03pm, 30th March 2011, Somewhere in International Plaza

From the corner of your eyes, I realized that what I can do for you is minimal. I am no longer the main actor in your play…. It’s time for me to exit. Hugging you so tightly, so so tightly…my heart is still throbbing with intense feelings for you… Can you still feel it…?

“Sxxx, I have thought things through. Thank you for the care and concern for the last three years. I will not force anything to happen anymore. As always, I wish you both well always. Best…Fxxx”

I sent out the sms to her, thinking that I was finally able to let it go this time round. I thought to myself, this was what I want and it will be the best for both of us…

1.58am, 31th March 2011, Home

Those beautiful memories seemed to hold me like a pair of velvet glove…making me feel so hopeful and strangled at the same time…

Coming back from a dinner date with Cxxx, I quickly bathed and started to msn with her. I know Cxxx from last semester and only started to go on dates with her recently. She did express her liking for me and asked how we should proceed from here. I was apprehensive and told her I just wanted to take things at a slow pace. She knows nothing about Sxxx and me.
I have always resisted holding Cxxx’s hands or getting intimate with her even there were many opportunities. Yet I enjoyed having meals with her, sending her little gifts and companying her back home from school. I can only conclude from these contrasting behaviors: I do not have the feel for Cxxx and tried to substitute her for Sxxx. I decided to tell her my true feelings after our final exams so as not to affect her.

Tonight is so quiet. I am all alone with my younger brother overseas. I can’t help but think of Sxxx. Listening to the songs we both once enjoyed, tears formed in my eyes. I have a great urge to write…just want to write. Maybe I should start from three years ago on Christmas Eve…

Best

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Afternoon 2 of writing

11.54pm, 24th March 2008, School

And everything I thought I believed in, I can feel it all slip away until I “met” you….did I dreamed you into my life? Maybe its intuition or something you just do not question, you seemed so right for me...

Logging into the chat-room for the past two hours, I thought of giving up my search and go out for a drink. That is until I saw the nick “Sxxx” flashes in my screen. I send her a message and started our conversation from there. A few exchanges of messages and msning, I realized she is not like one those girls who were easy based on my past experiences. Asking her to be careful since she is new to the chat-room, I decided to log off. Surprisingly, she replied, telling me the many people she blocked in msn when they tried to chat her up on sexual stuffs. Definitely, I am one of them but I do back off when I realized the other party is just a decent girl or such. I only follow up on girls whom I felt were easy. Somehow, we both decided to chat on the phone after her reply.

Not wanting to disturb my younger brother, I called her and went out of my place. I wanted to take a walk as well. Incredibly, we talked till almost 7am in the morning; all the while I was sitting in the park. We talked almost everything. There was never a moment throughout the conversation where I harbored sexual thoughts about her. We listened to each other, laughed and encourage each other…its seemed almost surreal that this can happen between two strangers who barely knew each other. Feeling so comfortable with her, I slowly open up myself to her, sharing with her about my past and getting to know about hers too…

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[Gaofar]

A nice way to start your account of story. This story has good potential and I like the way how you narrate it.

Hope to see more of the story, though I believe much of it is based on your true life experience. I know it is painful to recite it over again in your mind while penning your thoughts down, and for that I thank you..

Cheers and camping here to root for you..

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can't wait to see more. Take care bro