The old times....

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Fatty: Any plans after sch today..

Me: Bo leh... damn sian loh...
Fatty: Hey later i will jio ah keong they all for snooker want to join us...
Me: On lah..

The last lesson.. maths is damn boring... cant wait for it to be over.. Finally the bell ring... and soon i was at balestier point with my brothers playing snooker.

Me: Knn!! Fatty u damn tai ko today leh... this kind of ball also can go in...
Fatty: Brother.. this is not tai ko.. this is called skills leh!
Me: KNS!
Fatty: watch out.. yr girlfriend here already!
Me: Wah lau she is not my girlfriend.. she science student leh!

Yvonne walked over to us... angry as usual...

Yvonne: What r u doing here.. Do go home early for studies.. exams coming soon..
Me: Where got time.. cant u c that i am in the middle of the game?
Yvonne: U dun want to go home rite... fine.. i will sit here then...
Me: Wha lau pls come down lah... u sit on the snooker table... how can we play snooker here... ( All my brothers all laughing away)
Yvonne: So will u go hm then?
Me: K lah lah..

Me: Fatty.. paiseh.. have to make a move first...
Fatty: Nvm...

Me: next time.. dun do it again.. very malu for me...
Yvonne: if u dun want me to do it again. then pls study hard lah..
Me: What is the fucking point.. ever since i dropped to normal stream.. i really
bosim study already...
Yvonne: U cant go on forever...
Me: aiya dun bother me lah.. anyway.. u r a gd student.. dun come here anymore k.. here alot of gang fights de...

Bros btw this story happened during my secondary days which is over 20 years now... names have been changed... pls pardon my poor english...

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Yvonne: then u still come...
Me: i am different mah.. all my brothers here... if anything happen i can help mah.... anyway u go hm lah... u r a science student must spent more time on studies...

I then walked her to the bus stop... once done... i headed back to balestier point to look for my brothers...

Ah Keong: how come u r back so early.. i thought u went hm already.
Me: Cheebye i have nt finish my games...
Fatty: Where is yvonne?
Me: I walked her to the bus stop... nt gd for her to stay here for too long.. nt safe.. wait gang fight how?
Fatty: She like u is it?
Me: Siao she is a science student leh.. i am just a ah beng... ah.. dun tok abt this lah.. i go outside for a smoke first...

I went outside for a smoke..

Memories of the past seem to flood me again....

Yvonne: Y u so quiet de... nt used to mixed school eh..
Me: Yes maybe.. cos i came from a boy school...
Yvonne: no wonder lah...

Yvonne seem to the only girl i knew in the class... as she sat just beside me.
Soon i feel at ease with her as she is always very friendly and cheerful though at times i still feel shy while toking to her...

Whereas i can make friends easily with boys then as i am from boy school mah...

There is once when we were heading to the canteen with yvonne when there is upper sec ah beng tried to be funny with her...

Bully: this girl quite swee leh.. fresh stock!
Yvonne: Put yr hands off me... as the bully actually touched her hair from behind!!!
Me: what r u trying to do! i pushed him back!
Bully: Knn! ccb! he then kicked me in my face... Be careful before u mess around with me next time!!!

Yvonne: r u k?
Me: yup i am fine..

From then on.. my friendship with yvonne deepen....

[Johnnykhan]

first camper here. WAITING!!

[zerofighter]

However when it come to studies.. i am nt good as i am pretty lazy...
Being a neighbour school... there is only 2 express classes in the school. I was in the express stream but i did nt put in much efforts in my studies. Instead i would always fool around in the class playing paper bullets... or even fighting at times... detention classes to me is a norm...

On the other hand.. Yvonne is different.. she is quite good in her studies.
Thus she did well on the sec 2 exams and was promoted to sec 3 science stream.

Due to my laziness... i failed my sec 2 and was dropped to normal arts stream in sec 3.. what a fucking disgrace to me!!!!

I then drifted slowly from my former friends/classmates as they have progressed much faster compared to me...

Almost half of my sec 3 class boys are in gangs... 24 or 18...
Soon i found myself joining gangs too as it seem to he the in thing to do at school...

[zerofighter]

Fatty: cheebye u smoke so long...
Me: paiseh.. thinking of something...
Fatty: Think of yvonne rite..
Me: siao...
Fatty: we going to coffeeshop later... tou want to meet us later.
Me: K...

We were in the sitting at the coffeeshop.. tcss again when suddenly i spotted Yvonne heading towards me again..

Me: Oh no!!! She is together with her sis for dinner... i thought to myself.. this time really jialat!

Yvonne: I thought u went hm already...

Ah Keong: His Ke Xin is here! Whahhaha!

Me: I am quite speechless though i never expect to bum her here... cant think of any last mintue excuses....

Yvonne: I need to tok to u..
Me: K...

She pulled me to the corner..

Yvonne: When will u leave the gang?
Me: Siao! u think take off clothes so easy lah.. this is nt a supermarket.. can leave and go as we pleased..
Yvonne: I dun want to c being chopped one day...
Me: I know i know....
Yvonne: exams coming soon u still play around....
Me: Aiya chicken feet... here sec 3 is what we study last year...can pass one lah.. dun worry...
Yvonne: dun be over confident...
Me: Aiya u go hm first..
Yvonne: Me will go hm after dinner... and 4 goodness sake.. dun smoke k...
Me: C how first lah...

Back to my brothers.. Soon ah keong and fatty gf r here and they r showing off again...

Seng: Ah keong.. swee lah.. yr gf very pretty leh..
Ah Keong: Next round i will intro my gf friends to u.. steady bo...
Seng.. steady...
Fatty: Knn.. wait u c my ah lian friend.. they will make u nose bleed lah...
Jason: Really or nt?
Fatty: dun believe... c for yrself lah!

Most of the brothers at this pt become more excited liao as they really to jio some chio ah lians later...

[Meliss]

Sounds interesting..

[eeemen]

Interesting childhood stories ! I like. Thanks bro TS, cheers, ....................

[standingwild]

Setting up tent now.

[zerofighter]

Thanks bros for yr support... back to the story...

Words was spread around to us to come to zai dui earlier as we may be expecting trouble from another gang... This do nt sound nice to us as Yvonne would sometimes pop up at this coffeeshop to tok to me.. mainly to tell me to go hm early... the same stuff... Better think of ways to get rid of her first... This coffeeshop is too messy.... nt safe for her to be here...

Meanwhile Fatty soon arrived with his new ah lian gf and her sisters... All quite chio... Of course brothers soon get excited once they set their eyes on them...
Soon they were busy flirting with them and try to show off their manly character by toking and swearing loudly...

Fatty: Michelle... u sit beside my brother... he very steady one.. no gf one..
Soon i have Michelle sitting beside me...
Michelle: Heard that u dun have gf... zhen de ma?
Me: zhen de la! bluff u for what?..
Michelle: u so green meh...
Me: i very innocent one k.... i then give her a blur blur look...
Michelle: Innocent... like real.. she then laughed...
I cast a quick look around.. Yvonne is still around...
Me: want to smoke or not... I offered michelle a cig and even helped her to lighted up a cig...
Michelle: Baby.. come share the cig with me... she then feed me with her cig...
Me: thanks.. u r so nice...

That is the last straw... i c Yvonne stalking off in anger with her sis...
Fatty cast a surprised look at me while he witness the whole scene... he seem to have some questions to ask me but thank goodness he spotted my serious face and remain silent...

Thank goodness the tactic worked...

Time dragged and finally Michelle left with her friends...

Fatty: bro wait for me at yr void deck.. i need to tok to u...
Me: k...
We then left the zai dui as fatty need to sent her gf home...
Taking a puff outside.. i then head slowly to the void deck...

At my fourth fag... fatty soon arrived...

Fatty: y do u flirt so openly with Michelle just now...
Me: u r my brother.. surely u know the ans rite..
Fatty: Hmmn.. if my guess is rite.. u purposely do that to spike Yvonne off.. correct bo?..
Me: Correct.. u r really my brother... can know my thoughts so well...
Fatty: but y exactly do u do that?.. he shake his head...

I then take a deep puff...

Me: There may be gang fights again soon in our coffeeshop and i want her to be safe...
Fatty: u may lost yr friendship with her...
Me: Better lost it then let anything happen to her... next year is her O levels.. let her focus on her exams.. it have always been her dream to enter her ideal JC...
Fatty: Quite true.. anyway she is a top student...
Me: Whereas i am just a ah beng... and a normal stream art student...( sadly.. i smoked again..)

Soon we end the topic and start to tcss again.. swearing again...

[zerofighter]

As a matter of fact.. i did have feelings for Yvonne for but all the while i am keeping a distance from her ever since i dropped to normal stream and started my ah beng ways.. she deserved a better bf... someone whom can really take care of her and give her a sense of security....

After that day.. I seldom c Yvonne already for the next few weeks... She never appeared at the coffeeshop nor snooker saloon anymore.... nobody bug me to go home earlier... Meanwhile life still goes on for me... hanging out at zai dui.. arcade games and playing snooker with my brothers and at times involed with some silly street fights...

Fatty: I heard that steven is trying to sian Yvonne after he dumped Huirong..
Me: Serious?.. he is a super play boy... he have have quite a few gf liao..
Fatty: Cheebye he scholar leh... can study one and somemore know how to sian girls... he sure play play with Yvonne de..
Me: Yup u r rite.. this fucker cannot be trusted...
Ah Keong: Let teach him a lesson... whack him after sch...
Me: Nope that will only provoke his interests on Yvonne more... let me think of a way...

[prettymannequin]

Ah the story has so much potential. Please update soon! :o

[tailgunner]

Carry on, bro. This has the making of a good script for a new Channel 5 or 8 production.;)

Up you for your efforts.

[zerofighter]

Thanks bro Tailgunner and the rest of the brothers for your kind support in this thread... kam sia.. appreciate that.

The news of stephen trying to sian Yvonne really put me off... i am getting worried as i know that Stephen is really a ladykiller in the sch... Nt much girls can escape from his sweet tok... I was even more worried when i witness him walking her home on that fucking raining day...

Me: Cheebye i have to do something abt it... cannot keep quiet and pretend everything is fine!!!!.... ( I thought to myself as i saw Yvonne almost walking off with him!!!) Quickly i rushed to the main gate and shouted!

Me: Yvonne... wait for me!
Yvonne: k.... What is up?(She was abit surprised when she looked at me)
Me: I need to tok to u alone..
Yvonne: U go hm first... i will call u later.
Stephen: But it is raining now... u need an umbrella.
Yvonne: It is k.. i will be all rite.
Stephen: K then.
That fucker stephen lan lan finally leave with a super black face!

Quickly we walked to the nearby void deck whereby we can have a tok...

Me: Y r u with him?!.. Dun u know he is a super playbloy.
Yvonne: If u can have gf... y cant i have a bf... at least he treat me well..
Me: Since when i have a gf?...
Yvonne: That girl at that coffeeshop... a few weeks ago... the two of u r even sharing a cig! ( She was angry when she mentioned abt this)
Me: Zhen de.. she is nt my gf
Yvonne: Serious?...
Me: I may seem bo chup abt many things but i dun fool around with relationships.. u shd know me well by now.. ( i look tenderly in her eyes)

There is a long pause after this statement...

Yvonne: But do u know that i was damn pissed when i saw u doing that...
Me: I know... but i have to do that... bobian....
Yvonne: Y... i dun understand..
Me: Do u know that coffeeshop u went is filled with gangsters.. At times there would be gang fights...
Yvonne: SO?..
Me: i dun want u to be there... i dun want u to be hurt during gang fights...
it is dangerous to be there...
Yvonne: If u dun want me to get hurt.. y dun u just leave the gang and lead a normal lifestyle..

She is crying bitterly now...

Me: I cant just leave like that de..
Yvonne: then what abt us...
Me: Yvonne... u r different.. u r a top student.. next year is O level... a important year for u.. u can go yr ideal Jc if u do well and even go to UNI..
Yvonne: So?!!! she always said so whenever she is upset....
Me: Have u ever consider that i am one year slower than u... I am nt even confident in my N level... nt to say abt O Levels... we will drift even further...

That is my true confession to her.. these months of feelings bottled deep in my heart...

Yvonne: I dun care.. just ans me this question truthfully...
Me: K...
Yvonne: Have u got any feelings for me?
Me: YES... if not i will nt have care so much abt these.. how u feel... people will change.. if u leave this school and begin yr college days.. yr feelings and mindset will change de... it is just a matter of time.
Yvonne: is that really how u feel?...

Again there is a pause while it is still raining cats and dogs outside...

[waterlord]

Wa nice story TS!!!

[zerofighter]

Yvonne: I am contented to know that u have feelings for me... That is all i need to know.. the rest is secondary...
I remain silent at this moment... a mix of different feelings is in my heart... should i take a step forward and hold her hand now... is it the rite time to begin a relationship with her... is it fair to her?... My heart is in a deep turmoil...

Me: Yvonne... I.... ( I Paused again nt knowing what is the correct words to use)
Yvonne: Pls tell me whatever that is going on in yr mind... K?...
Me: Give me some time to straighten my life... unless i can straighten things out and give u some assurance... it is best that we remain as friends...
Yvonne: I will wait for u.. meanwhile pls promise me something... dun get yrself in fights again k..
Me: I will try to control my temper...
Yvonne: Dun u go back on yr word...

With this statement.. i walked her hm.. using my sch bag to shelter her head from the rain....

[maddog_mlvn]

Very nice, waiting for more update fm TS.

[prettymannequin]

So sweet. Like puppy love. :)

[EnigmaofSorrow]

Camping for more...

[zerofighter]

Soon we reached her house void deck...

Yvonne: Thanks for the sch bag... u r all wet..
Me: nvm... me a man.. abit drenched no problem.. go hm must take a hot shower k...
Yvonne: Yes i will...
Me: btw is Stephen yr bf? ( i have been wanting to ask her this question and finally i plucked enough courage to ask her this question...)
Yvonne: Of course nt... he is nt my type... she smiled...
Me: wo ke yi fang xin le... ( I am rest assured now)...
Yvonne: Promise me one more thing can?...
Me: k... i will do my best...
Yvonne: Cut down on yr smoking... nt gd for yr health...
Me: K i will try... ( I have a weakness for cig... it have become part of my life... but for the sake of Yvonne... i will have to do my best to quit then...
Yvonne: Dun u ever go back on yr word...
Me: A promise is a promise....
Yvonne: call me after u reach hm..
Me: Roger.

I then sent her to the lift lobby... As i was heading to the bus stop.. suddenly she turned back and look at me...

Yvonne: Ni fang xing... i will nt meet steven again..
At that pt of time.. i cant hide my smile and was overjoyed at what she told me....

[zerofighter]

That day... i somehow feel different...

Still remember when i went to the zai dui that day... i did nt have much craving for cig..

Fatty: No money for a smoke is it?..
Me: No lah it is nt that...
Ah Keong: Na here is 0.20 cents u can buy a stick from the mama shop.. paiseh me damn poor today.. cant lent u much..
Me: it is nt the case... i really dun have much craving for cig today
Fatty: R u unwell? ( He put his hand on my forehead.. ) No fever wat...
Me: tell u guys later...

Thank Goodness Fatty and Ah Keong gf soon arrived and that i have some moments of peace as they r busy toking to their gf...

Me: Have to go hm already...
Fatty: What... so early...
Me: have to go hm for dinner..
Ah Keong; Dun tok cock... since when u have to go hm for dinner?..
Fatty: Hey something fishy going on...
Me: meet u at the void deck later.. call me when u r free...
Fatty and ah keong: They nod their head.

[simifly]

Really one of the best stories. Remind me of my teenage era.
My gf also demanded me to quit gang and smoking.
Good good, thumbs up.

[xxxaddict]

nice story.
camping for more.

[zerofighter]

just back from the meeting... Anyway back to the story..

Me quickly head hm and called yvonne...

Me: i reach hm liao...
Yvonne: so early... Guai loh...
Me: did u catch a cold due to the rain...
Yvonne: nope i am k... Thanks.. Btw... Did u get involed with any fights today
Me: nope i remain low profile... Finish 2 cokes and go hm..
Yvonne: gd boy... She giggled...
I almost want to tell her i missed her but somehow i did nt tell her...

Me: later i need to go downstairs to meet fatty.
Yvonne: call me once u r hm..
Me: dun wait for my call if it is too late... Tmr still have sch..
Furthermore... It wun be nice to call u in the middle of the nite when yr family is sleeping

Yvonne:k.. Do take care of yrself
Me: roger.
We chat for a while more... And end the call.. With me promising her that i will
Do my hmwork.

In my era... We dun have hp yet and pagers is a luxury to own and i do nt own it yet...

[blade]

Support. More pls :)

[siambee]

In my era... We dun have hp yet and pagers is a luxury to own and i do nt own it yet...

same here.... :D own my 1st pager in sec 3 1994...

[simifly]

I still remember those 5121314, 5123344…
Bros who still remember those numbers add in leh
While we wait for TS to continue.

[BMW69]

This is one story I'm eagerly awaiting updates! :D

[levelcool]

really nice stury bro!!! support support

[acidicavex]

I think there is 43110 or something 29125 nv use liao all return...... :D

[GeMiNiZzzzZzz]

Really reminds me 20+ yrs ago :o

Keep it up TS...fantastic write and read :D

[zerofighter]

5845123344 (I swear that i will love u forever)
6000-177 ( Good morning)
6000-9 ( Good Nite)
596 ( I reach le)
532 ( I miss u)
1-177155-2 ( I miss u)
68532( Lao puo I miss u)
68512 ( Lao puo I love u)

These r some which i remember.. use to do that after i own my pager... so funny when u think of the old days a times.. dun have hp... have to look for public phone to make phone calls... phone cards and 10 cents have to be in the pockets... but people in those days r more simple... have more kam cheng for each other then...

[zerofighter]

Anyway back to the story...

Late in that nite.... I managed to meet up with fatty and ah keong...

I relate to them abt what happened... what i confessed to Yvonee... (of course nt too detailed as i dun want them to know the mushy parts...)...

Fatty: wha lau.. u shd have just grab her hand and jio her to be yr gf..
Ah Keong: Yeah lah.. u missed the chance...
Me: Siao.. u thought go to mama shop just grab cig and pay meh.. this is abt a relationship.. nt the rite time yet...
Ah Keong: Then what is the rite time... wait until New Year... Is it.. Whahaha..
Me: I have nt quitted gang and smoking...
Fatty: what is yr plans then?...
Me: I am thinking slowly to hang my clothes and eventually remove clothes.. ( Quit gang)..
Fatty: Hmnn... in that case... u have to reduce going to zai dui first... Tou will soon know y and will have a tok with u then...
Me: Hopefully he wun make things too difficult for me...
AH keong: Just tell him the truth.. that u need to study loh...
Fatty: Anyway the same gang rule applied... u have to go through the Lift Rule if u r going to quit the gang...
Ah Keong: R u prepared for that?
Me: Yes.. I am prepared to be whacked by u all...
Fatty: And once u r out of the gang.. whatever happened to u outside will nt be covered by the gang le...

There is a short pause after that...

Fatty: Brother.. that meants.. yr old enemies.. will take this chance to seek revenge on u...
Ah Keong: Wha lau.. that will be second round of whacking u have to take..
Me: i bet alan that bastard will be the first ones to whack me...
Fatty: That time.. we whacked him openly in front of his men...
Ah Keong: By Rite.. if he is out of the gang already.. they shd nt have touch him already...
Me: Dun forget they r chao kids... they dun reason with u one...
Fatty: R u really mentally prepared to face all these?
Me: for the sake of Yvonne.. i have to do that... 1 can be whacked but we cannot allow her to be hurt in any ways...
Fatty: The intial period will be difficult.. people will surely come to find u trouble.. but eventually things will settle down.
Me: Yup i agreed with u...
AH Keong: Aiya.. damn troublesome.. it is better to be with ah lian... can smoke and play together.. dun need to care abt all these...
Me: Yvoone is a decent girl... Btw guys.. pls dun leak out this news to the rest of the brothers... u two r my most trusted brothers...
Fatty: Wonder how the rest of the bros will think of this... Leaving the gang due to a girl... very malu de...
Me: Paiseh...
Fatty: But since u have already decided... as brothers we will support yr decesion.
AH Keong: Correct.
Me: No turning back once i make this choice.
Fatty: Want a smoke?...
Me: Nope.. do u have sweets instead?
Ah Keong: want to smoke rite... sweets only help abit at first...
Me: Feel funny without cig...
Fatty: U really want to quit smoking...
Me: I already promise Yvonne to cut down on smoking..
Fatty: Cut down nt quit mah..
Ah Keong: Just smoke abit lah...

I looked at the cig.. really tempted to take one... It have been more than half a day since my last fag...

Me: no lah.. she would be happy to c me quit.
Ah keong: u can still smoke secretly even u went out with her.. just eat sweets to cover yr breath...
Fatty: Cheebye zhiping used to do that but his gf still smell out from his clothes... girls damn sharp one k...
Me: Dun one lah.. damn no pride to do that... Since i have already promised her already.. i must honour my word.
Fatty: On lah we support u...
Ah Keong: U have to avoid going to mama shop liao...
Me: Yup my 0.20 cents cig and the lighter which hang at the mama shop...

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Fatty: Have u ever considered the education status gap between the 2 of u?..
Me: Yup i have thought abt that.. this is one of the greatest concern.. that is y i have been avoiding her...
Ah Keong: True... next year is her O levels already.. knn we still doing our N level..
Me: That is y i have to start to focus on my studies liao.... next year pass the N levels and prepare myself for the O levels..
Fatty: By the time.. u finish yr fucking O level... she will be in junior college liao...
Me: She will always be one year ahead of me... and 2 years even if i managed to squeeze into poly or pre u.... and dun forget we have to serve our fucking NS.
Ah keong: knn.. then it will be at least 3 to 4 years slower than her...
Me: Yup that is rite...
Fatty: If she really love u she will nt mind all these de la!
Me: People will change... she may change after she went to college...
Fatty: and u still want to take the risk?.....
Me: Yes as she really did meant something to me... ( Actually what i really want to express is she really did meant alot to me..) but in front of my brothers... i feel paiseh to admit ba...
Ah Keong: Knn yr mind so rusty le... very hard to focus back to studies one lah...
Me: I have nt finish my maths hmwork yet...
Fatty: dun do lah.. may as well sleep...
Me: Cannot la again i promised her that i would finish my hmwork..
Ah Keong: Hahaha.. now u have her as yr personal tutor... u cant idle anymore... ( We all laughed together at this joke)

We tcss for a while more and upon finish their last fag... we headed off hm...

That nite.. i cant sleep well... thinking of the road ahead for me...
It is going to be difficult... having to abandon my vices and change for the better... but the thought of Yvonne warmed my heart and give me the strength to go on...

[zerofighter]

The next day.. Yvonne actually waited for me at the canteen during recess...

Me: Hi...
Yvonne: want to eat together...
Me: Nt very nice.. wait people gossip abt us how..
Yvonne: let them tok whatever they want
Me: k then..

Soon we were having our lunch together... i really enjoy it with her.. hoping that recess time will be longer than 20 mins..

Yvonne: what time did u reach hm yesterday..
Me: Abt 11pm ba...
Yvonne: So late... did u managed to finish yr hmwork...
Me: Nt really as i am struggling with the maths sums... never seem to know how to solve equations..
Yvonne: Let me help u then after sch if u did nt need to go to the coffeeshop..
Me: Nope i am nt going today..
Yvonne: gd boy... how abt snooker games...
Me: Nope...
Yvonne: how abt arcade games?..
Me: Nope...
Yvonne: So guai?.. k meet u at the school gate after sch then... She smiled..
I am glad that she is smiling...

The next few weeks i greatly cut down on going to zai dui and my other gaming activities... Yvonne is really a gd tutor.. very patient with me... Soon the whole school ( Upper sec) started to know my so called special relationship with her... we r nt a couple yet but we r very special friends... People start to gossip abt us.. especially those snobbish students from the science class...

Duno y Yvonne choose to hang out with that ah beng... normal arts stream student... also nt gd looking... even kena public caning last year for smoking... this kind of rubbish... ( Qian Tu Wu Liang) no brightness in future for him...

Words of gossip soon spread to my ears and i am worried when i know all these.. how would Yvonne view all these?.. can she take the pressure/stress of all these words...

Yvonne: Dun worry abt what others will say... i really dun mind..
Me: but it is so unfair to u...
Yvonne: So long as u will change for the better.. y bother abt all these?...I can bear with it... no problem..
Me: i promised u that i will focus on my final year exams.. will do my best to pass this time round..
Yvonne: Dun give yrself too much stress.. u can do it de...
Me: thanks for having such confidence in me...

Days were spent at the airport... wen xi gong ke ( Studying) with Yvonne. ( T1 or T2 that time have a study lounge.) Those days were really memorable... nt knowing that i will soon get in trouble again....

[BMW69]

Wow so many updates today

[zerofighter]

Paiseh.. weekend nt a gd time to write as OC is around... and with kids around...

[zerofighter]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYUSRKvWZZA

One of the songs which i like by 关德辉 - 梦不醒(钢琴版)> Would always listen to this song whenever i miss Yvonne in those days... Sigh.. memories.. can only be keep deep in my heart...

[zerofighter]

I still remember when i am at hm studying when i the phone rang...

Ring Ring.....

Me: Hello
Ah Keong: L.. r u free?.. we need help! Fatty got attacked by some bastards.. want to join us?.. ( Tiao Shui call).
Me: Where r u all?..
Ah Keong: At the usual place..
Me: K give me 20 mins.

Quickly i changed my clothes and rushed down to meet them... otw there.. i am struggling with myself.. shd i join them as i remember my promise to Yvonne.. dun get involed with fights already... But fatty saved me b4... my ever first gang fight... he got a cut on his rite arm while trying to shield me...
This is the renqing which i need to return ...

Soon i reached the place...

Me: Wtf... (i take a look at fatty cdt.. blue black on his eyes... and raw cuts on his hands..)
Fatty: CCB!!!! tok to gf at her house void deck also can kena whacked...
Me: How many aganist u...
Fatty: 4 of them... cheebye... gf kena whacked too...
I then spotted his gf being comforted by her sisters... ( her face is brusied too)
Fatty: Girls they also whacked.. and they call themselves men!!!
Ah Keong: Tou said can only sent 2 men to us... ( They need more people to guard the zai duI)
Me: Knn damn humchee... cant he sent more men?!!
Fatty: r u joining us?
Me: Yes.. ( i spotted his scar on his rite arm.. nt forgetting that cut which he have shield me b4..
Fatty: What abt yr promise to Yvonee.. u told her that u would nt get into fights again..
Me: bobian.. between love and honour.. i choose honour...
Fatty: Swee lah!!

Our other two friends soon arrived.. and the 5 of us soon headed to the place where fatty got whacked... ( With jia huo ( Weapons in our bag).

[zerofighter]

Bros will update asap as i need to attend a meeting soon. Thanks bros..

[simifly]

Swee lah, story getting more and more exciting.
Thanks bro zerofighter for this great story.
SUPPORT!!!

[prettymannequin]

Exciting. Really cannot wait for some action!

[zerofighter]

Just back from the meeting... back to the story...


it does nt take long for us to spot them playing basketball at one of the nearby blocks..

Fatty: Cheebye abt 9 of them or more.... look like they r from the street gang... we r outnumbered!

Me: So?! just attack them! still wait for fuck!
Fatty: di siong men shang!!!

We shouted our war cry and rushed towards them.. armed with baseball bats/ pocket knife/ small weapons !

They were obviously caught by this sudden outburst from us but they did nt take long to respond to our attack!!!

We fought like wild dogs that day even when we r outnumber of nearly 2 to 1...

Fatty: Go after that fucker with the black kangaroo shorts! he is the one who whacked sharon!!!

Those bastards too r very determined to win in the fight and the fierce fight lasted for quite a while till some passers by shouted mata mata.. the fight was soon dispered... with blue black all over our bodies!!! It is a messy fight!

Running together.. the 5 of us ran to the nearby park and collapsed at the bench...

Ah Keong: Fuck man this is a great fight!
Jason: Knn they can fight well..
Fatty: Any police behind?!
Me: Dun think so...
We looked at each other bruised face and laughed...

Scarface: at least no broken limbs for us...
Fatty: L.. u have a nasty cut on yr arms...
me: In return for yr scar... i point at his rite arm... this is what i owe u...
Fatty: Brothers dun mention abt owe each other.. I ( Zuo Siong di you jin sheng mei lai shi) Brothers r only fated to be together in this life only.
All 5 of us: Steady...

We normal stream students may be poor in our studies but we r willing to fight and bleed for each other. That is the Code of Honour we abide...

Deep in my heart.. i am worried abt how to acct to Yvonne for my bruised face and the gang fight....

[zerofighter]

Ah keong: Go hm must apply jie ta again...
Fatty: when we old.. we sure kena internal injuries...
Me: This is the road we choose.. have to bear with it ba...

This is my last gang fight.. though we did nt win in this fight but at least we managed to win back some face for fatty.. it is the pride which matter.. if we dun fight back... we r chickens.. This is what we firmly believed at that pt of time.

Soon i reach hm with my parents scolding me for getting involed in fights again...

Dad: Fight.. fight that is all u know... one day died on the streets then u know..
Mum: Aiya u gd for nothing... learn from yr sister.. gd in her studies and piano dun need to let us worry.. blah blah blah...

I just ignored their words and locked myself in the room... applying tie da myself.. thinking of how to acct to Yvonne abt this mess...

[CibLover]

Good narration.

TS, please continue! :)

[BMW69]

I'm sure you'll be forgiven if that's really your last fight :)

[simifly]

Waiting for today's update.:D:D:D

[zerofighter]

I remember that i did nt look forward going to school the next day... but i still decided to attend school as it is pontless to avoid the issue... During the assembly... Yvonne spotted my bruised face and arms.... She was shocked to c that... there seem to be many questions on her mind but we dun have to chance to tok to each other as we r a distance apart... ( Remember: We belong to different classes)... Recess Time will be only time when we can meet and tok... For the first time in my school life... i really dun look forward to recess Time as i really do nt how to account to her....

Recess Time: As usual she was waiting for me near to the drinks stall..

Yvonne: What happened to u?... have u been fighting again?...
Me: Nope i fall into the drain while cycling yesterday... ( I spoke in trembling tone)
Yvonne: Look straight into my eyes and tell me the truth...
Me: I....
Yvonne: U r nt speaking the truth... i know u too well.. u dun even dare to look straight into my eyes... R u involed with fights again?!....
Me: Yup.....
Yvonne: Have u forgotten yr promise to me?...
Me: Nope but at times it is very hard for me to make a decision which can please everyone...
Yvonne: Y.. i really dun understand... ( she is sobbing...).... Thank Goodness we r near the garden pond toking whereby there is nt much people... if nt I will really be awkward then....

At that moment... the school bell ring...

Me: Meet u at the main gate after school k...
Yvonne: K....

With a heavy heart i headed back for lessons.. nt concentrating on the lessons at all... The sight of her sobbing keep flooding my mind... I feel very guilty abt hurting her again.... who knows the turmoil in my heart... Brotherly ties and promise to the loved ones.. I can only decide on one......

[zerofighter]

Soon the last lesson is over... and i have to face Yvonne.. She was waiting for me at the main time.. this time round without a smiling face...

Me: let find somewhere quiet to tok....
Yvonne: K then...

We then make the way towards her hm... Both of us are very quiet as we r deep in our thoughts... Soon we found a void deck whereby we have a gd tok..

Yvonne: Y did u break yr promise to me?... ( Her eyes r red and tears started to flow again...)
Me: Sorry.. i need to help fatty as he was attacked by a group of fuckers... He saved me b4... This is the renqing which i need to return... ( I then related the story to her how fatty sheild me from his attacks...)
Yvonne: At the expense of yr promise to me?....
Me: I am sorry....
Yvonne: I know u men always care abt yi qi ( Code of Honour) but can u spare a thought for my feelings before u do anything rash?!!!!
Me: I am really sorry... ( I am at a loss for words now)...
Yvonne: Do u know that i am always very worried abt u.... whenever got police case at sch... i will be fearful... thinking whether u r in any trouble...
( She is sobbing now)... I am tired......
Me: I will change de... pls give me some time.. i will quit gang...
Yvonne: What abt yr bad temper and yr recklessness?...
Me: I will....
Yvonne: I am tired... really... Give me some time to cool down... meanwhile.. pls promise me something k...
Me: K...
Yvonne: The next few weeks is exam period... pls promise me that u will focus hard on yr exams....
Me: I will study hard... dun worry abt me...

With that she headed off home without even allowing me to sent her hm.....

That day... i remembered is the worst day of my life... The sense of emptiness filled my heart... I feel a deep sense of urgency to quit the gang. Without thinking much.. i headed towards the zai dui... must tell Tou that i need to hang my clothes... Even if he want to whack me... i will agreed to it....

Fatty: R u K?... y u look so blur...
Me: Tell u later.. where is Tou?...
Fatty: dunno leh.. he was around just a while ago...
Me: Whalan fuck lah!...
Fatty: brother cool down.. whatever u want to tell tou.. u have to tok in a nice manner...
Me: Got it...

Tou soon arrived and i finally have a chance to tok to him though he was busy as there r some lao puay lang around that day...

I told him that i intended to leave the gang and he was tulan when he heard that especially he need men now to guard the zai dui...etc... I maintain my stand and refused to give in to his threats and even his so called promises.. that there will be no lack of women if i worked hard and rise swiftly in the ranks... Sensing my determination to leave.. as i really bo sim liao... He finally let me off after he have a tok with Fatty who is my Senior... But i have to go through the lift rule.... That is a must... A date was set for the lift ceremony...

Fatty: U have to leave now... i will meet u tonite...
Ah Keong: Brother take care of yrself... c u tonite...
Me: K... call me when u r done...

I then head home to study... To focus on my studies at this point of time is indeed very difficult for me as i am worried abt Yvonne... will she break off the break off the friendship with me... but the thought of my promise to study hard for exams seem to pushed me on.. giving me the strength to goes on.....

[zerofighter]

That nite i met up with Fatty and Ah Keong for a tok.. i relate to them what happened then...

Fatty: y the sudden decision to leave?...
Me: I cant make her worry anymore abt me... it is unfair to her..
Fatty: The lift rule is nt a joke... u sure that u can go through another round of whacking again...
Ah Keong: Knn u have nt recovered from the injuries yesterday...
Me: Cant think so much liao.... i have already owe her alot....( I still remember i have a strong craving for cig again.. i was always tempted whenever i am bek chek... but somehow i have to stop the urge again by eating lots of polo sweets...)
Fatty: K.. dun worry so much... i am sure that she will be touched by what u have done for her...
Me: Btw pls do nt leak out the news of the lift ceremony to anyone.. i dun want her to worry abt this matter...
Fatty and Ah Keong: They nod their head....

We soon end the meeting as i need to rushed off hm to revise for my exams again...

[kelvin155]

More please!

[simifly]

Three Cheers to a 有情(Yvonne)有义(fatty) 的 zerofighter.

[zerofighter]

Thanks bro simifly for yr constant support to this thread... and the rest of the bros for supporting this thread too... Really appreciate it... Thank Goodness for this forum where we can pen our thoughts... Thoughts which cannot be shared to our wife... but memories which still lingered on in our hearts... most innermost thoughts or secrets which cannot be shared can be shared here....

Indeed those were the days with my brothers... still remember the times when we share a cig.... ( At times.. we cant even afford a pack of Marlboro cig... our best red ones) have to get one at $0.20 from the mama shop near our school... 2 to 3 brothers can share a stick.... Any bros here have similar experience?...

Though we dun have much that time.. nt even a PC... ( That era... to own a PC is nt easy as it is nt cheap... most of us from that school is poor...)... but what we have is the deep bond of friendship for each other...

[zerofighter]

Back to the story.....

Yvonne did not call me for the next few days... There r times when i nearly want to pick up the phone to call her but i dun dare..... Give her some time to cool down and focus on her exams ba.... i thought to myself... Assembly times is always is the times when i can cast a look at her.... there r a few times she look at me.... but just for that split second... she will turn her face away... i must have hurt her deeply... Feelings of guilt would always creep up to me especially in the middle of the nite.....

The only thing which i can ever do for her is to study hard for my exams.... That is what being promised to her.... so i spent my days studying.. though at times i really want to rush down to mama shop to grab a packet of cig just to de stress myself... but somehow i did nt do it..... The lift ceremony soon arrived after my physics paper...

Heading towards the highest level of the lift... i begin to take the lift down...

Storey 13, 9, 5 ,1

Once the lift opened at different level... punches were thrown at me from my gang brothers... thank goodness some of them dun really hit that hard especially for Fatty and Ah Keong....and i managed to survive after the punches... It is painful... but no amount of pain can make up for the hurts which i have inflicted on Yvonne ba...

[simifly]

'Buka roko' cost 20cents during my time but its lucky strike. Maybe different mama shop different price. Yah, missed those days. Sometimes tink back also quite sweet. Same like u, i take off shirt and quit smoking for a girl who became my wife today. :D

[zerofighter]

The 2 weeks exam period is finally over... Somehow i dun feel confident abt the papers... Throughout the 2 weeks... Yvonne did nt call me nor did she meet me at the canteen or at the main gate anymore.......

I missed her greatly but i did nt dare to call her till on a sat afternoon... i managed to pluck up enough courage to call her.....

Phone ring....

Me: Hello, May i speak to Yvonne please?
Yvonne Sis: Jie nt around...
Me: Any idea when she will be back?
Yvonne Sis: She is away to east coast for bbq... wun be hm so early de...
Me: Thanks...

A sudden urge to look for her is so intense in my heart that i did nt took long to change and took a bus to east coast... ( Can even afford cab fare to go there).... damn jialat rite.... I am determined to search the whole of east coast for that bbq pit... i really wanted to confess my feelings to her... Up to that day... i still have nt told her i love her yet..... There is so much so tell her but i always feel that it is nt the rite time yet as i have nt take off my clothes( Quit gang) at that pt of time....

Bros i will give u guys a update soon as i need to rush through some documents... cheers!..

[zerofighter]

Bro simifly.. u r lucky to be with that girl who is eventually yr wife... me nt so lucky... sigh.. nt all love stories have a happy ending...

[zerofighter]

Packing up my umbro bag.. i rushed to the bus stop... Have to change bus before taking bus 13 to east coast... Along the way... i listened to my walkman listening to Andy lau songs... My feelings for her is more intense as the song continues....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XINpilyRnug

Finally reach east coast... cut through the tunnel.... and decided to take the rite way from mac and i start my search for her....

It is a hot sunny afternoon... and soon i was sweating... walking fast.... My heart is in a whirl... thoughts was in a real mess but i have one thing in mind.. that is to find her....

[zerofighter]

I walked endlessly that day... ( As a matter of fact... i would want to rent a mountain bike.. it would be faster to search in that way... but i would be broke if i do that... sigh those was the days...)... I still cant locate any trace of her even combing through the end on the rite side of east coast... ( Remember the first tunnel which cut through east coast from the old marine parade library... now is the NTUC supermart)... Still cant find her...

By then i was sweating all over... i then went to the nearby Toilet and have a few gulps of tap water before i went on with the search... Walked towards Mac again.. Pass by the bicycle shop just beside the mac... This time round... i decided to rent a mountain bike.. ( Thank goodness i just have enough money to rent the bike for 2 hours)...

I then fast hand fast leg and cycle fast down the track.. keeping an eye for Yvonne and my ex class mates..... I am racing aganist time as it is going to be evening soon.....

[zerofighter]

Wild thoughts raced through my mind as i was still unable to reach her...( Did i missed her out already... maybe i cock eye).. i rub my eyes again as the sweat start to enter my eyes.. making it damn uncomfortabe!!!

Towards Bedok Jetty... i spotted someone who resemble Jinshun.. ( One ex sec 1 classmate)... Bingo have hope liao!!! Finally... I zoom in to him and start to cycle even faster than ever......

Thank Goodness... i saw Yvonne at one of the bbq pits... preparing some bbq food.. ( Till today.. i still cant forget this scene)... Without delay.. i park my bike and rushed to her.... she was damn surprised to c me appearing at east coast....

Xiaojing: We never invite normal stream students for bbq... this is nt for u...
Me: i come for her....

I then walked towards her...

Me: Yvonne.. can i have a word with u... ( Sweat is all over my face... i must be an unpleasant sight)... but i dun care anymore... i must confess to her my feelings today... i am worried as that i may nt have the courage to do
so anymore....
Yvonne: k....

We headed to the wave breaker... that is the quiet place....

Yvonne: y did u know i am here...
Me: yr mei told me.. i called u today..
Yvonne: c u sweating all over... ( She pass me a pack of tissue and dry my face)...
Me: I have quit the gang... and study hard for my exams...
Yvonne: really... since when u have leave the gang? ( She smiled... the sweetest smile which i have ever seen in my life...
Me: Abt a week ago after my physics paper...
Yvonne: I am so glad that u have finally managed to leave the gang... ( Her voice choked with joy...)

There is a pause after that....

Yvonne: I want to ask u a question....
Me: K...
Yvonne: Would u protect me if i am being bullied/ attacked by thugs?...
Me: YES.... i would use my body to shield u from any hurts... i would rather die than to c u being hurt...
Yvonne: Silly boy... y did u do that?...
Me: Cos i love u....( I looked tenderly in her eyes and for the first time i hold her hands tightly)...

Soon we were tearing in each other arms....

[LTPGTD]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYUSRKvWZZA

One of the songs which i like by 关德辉 - 梦不醒(钢琴版)> Would always listen to this song whenever i miss Yvonne in those days... Sigh.. memories.. can only be keep deep in my heart...

Been a long long time since i last posted anything in here... But ur story and particularly this song indeed brought back many memories.... Plus who can forget about those pager codes... Damn classic.... Haha...

Keep it up bro... :cool:

[zerofighter]

Tnanks bro for ur kind suppot..

Tok abt pager codes... Who can recall the code for sorry..
i have been trying to recall but i just cant temember the code liao...

[LTPGTD]

Tnanks bro for ur kind suppot..

Tok abt pager codes... Who can recall the code for sorry..
i have been trying to recall but i just cant temember the code liao...

hmmm....

5012124??? :D haha

[kelvin155]

Power TS! Wondering if this is the end of the story? Waiting for more updates.

[zerofighter]

Morning to bro Simifly and bro LTPGTD... Bingo, 5012124 is the code for sorry!
5 stand for S... 12 stand for R ( resemble R) and 4 stand for Y...

Kamsia bro for remembering this code...

Just to add on...

274 ( Ni qu si, u go and die).. very scared if i received this code from my ex...damn jialat...

[zerofighter]

Back to the story:

Yvonne: When do u need to return yr bike?...
Me: Soon as i only rent it for 2 hours...
Yvonne: I will go with u...
Me: No lah so far... later u still need to walk back here..
Yvonne: Dun need cos i want to spent some time with u.. forget abt bbq...( she smiled)
Me: Really?... i am overjoyed when i heard that....
Yvonne: Wait for me... i will bid my class goodbye then i can set off with u le..
Me: Roger!

It wasnt long before i drive her back on my mountain bike... ( That is the sweet memories... though it is only a bike.. nt a car... but we r so close... )...
The nite is breezy and i can still remember the feelings of her being close to me... All the 3 years from being a friend to now eventually being a couple is really nt a easy path for both of us... I will cherish this relationship.. this is what i really feel at that point of time...

Soon we returned the bikes... and holding hands walking along the beach....

Me: Do u ever have any regrets for having feelings for me?...
Yvonne: No leh... y do u ask this question?..
Me: I meant... u can always choose someone who is better than me in terms of studies and looks...
Yvonne: All these r nt important... the only thing which i fear... is u getting into trouble/fights again....
Me: I promised u that i will nt get involed with fights again...
Yvonne: Gd boi... remember fighting will nt solve any problems...
Me: Yes Madam. Your wish is my command.
Yvonne: Siao... she giggled...
Me: Promise me something k...
Yvonne: what is it?
Me: If i ever got ambushed by my enemies.. run for yr life first..
Yvonne: Nope.. i want to be with u...
Me: Dun be silly... i cant allow u to be hurt in any ways...
Yvonne: Dun think so much.. u r out of the gang le... nothing will happen...
Me: k... (I hold her hands tightly...)
Yvonne: Anyway with u around by my side.. there is nothing to fear...

We listen to our favourite songs... shared between the earpiece... Till today.. i still remember this scene so well in my memories...

Just to share this songs to bros... This is one of the popular xinyao songs which both of us love....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ddN7NBVZGQw

Hope that u guys will like it...

It is a wonderful nite at east coast... how i wish that time will pass by slowly... that it could be eternity for us....

[ANowhereMan]

Bro, really good story... can relate to certain parts.

Cheers ! :)

[BMW69]

Just to share this songs to bros... This is one of the popular xinyao songs which both of us love....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ddN7NBVZGQw

I loved the movie. That 1990s Singapore love story. Hopefully your ending will be happier :)

[zerofighter]

As it is getting late...( Yvonne cant be home late) We then headed towards the bus stop i sent her home... The bus journey is fast and smooth, time seem to pass quickly with her by my side... she lied on my shoulders... i cuddle her gently.... soon she fall asleep... and i am careful nt to wake her up....

The bus journey soon come to an end and i sent her to the lift lobby.... Unable to bear to part with her.. i kiss her gently on her forehead...

Yvonne: Thanks..
Me: Miss u... good nite...

The next day... Yvonne came out secretly to meet me.... she actually prepared a bottle of Tie Da Jiu....

We went to our usual hangout which is a playground... and she applied Tie Da Jiu for me....

Yvonne: My Gosh.. what have they done to u... blue black all over body..
Me: Aiya lift ceremony is like that one... I have chosen this road myself so have to bear the consequences...
Yvonne: Do i rub it too hard... ( i am struggling with pain as Yvonne is using alot of strength)
Me: Abit painful...
Yvonne: Just bear with it.. k.. must use strength... if nt the blue black will still be there...
Me: Yes madam...

Though it is painful.. i really appreciate for what she has done for me... those days when we were injured.. who will bother to apply Tie Da Jiu for us......

The final exams was soon released.... I managed to score an average of 62.8 and cleared my sec 3 papers... Yvonne was waiting for me outside the school hall.. anxiously waiting for me...

Yvonne: How is it?...
Me: I passed my exams!...
Yvonne: Great... what is yr score...
Me: 62.8 average...
Yvonne: That is gd... i am proud of u... ( I feel like hugging her but we r still r sch)...
Me: What abt u...
Yvonne: I passed too... average of 82.5...
Me: Wow...
Yvonne: Let go to Mac for a bite... k...
Me: K..

We were on the way to Mac when we bump into Alan and his men again... ( By this time... news of me leaving the gang have already spread around the school).

Sensing that something bad is going to happen... I told Yvonne to go off first but she refused to budge...

Alan who is smoking soon surround me with his boys.. abt 7 of them ba if i dun remember wrongly...

Me: It is a matter between us men... pls let my gf off.
Alan: did i hear the word pls?... whahaha... he laughed..
Me: Yes please...
Alan: Want me to let her off also can... if u dare to burn yrself with this cig butt without even a groan! i will let her off...
Me: K on! Without having second thoughts.. i took his cig butt and press it hard aganist my knuckle twice... The pain is terrible but i gritted on my teeth and bear with the pain...( Till today.. the scars remain)
Me: Whatever i owe u.. i have already return u already... can let my gf off...
Alan: K.. steady... ( All of a sudden he swing his punches on me... abt 2 to 3 ba)
Alan: Now this matter settled....

Yvonne was horrified to witness this scene...

Me: R u k?...
Yvonne: I am k... still think of me at this moment when u r already hurt.. ( Her voice is choking)
Me: I am a man.. can tahan....
Yvonne: I am so worried that u will fight back...
Me: I have nt forgotten my promise to u.....
Yvonne: Thanks... wait for me... ( She rushed to the mama shop and get a tube of toothpaste and applied the toothpaste on my cig wounds)

From then on... our feelings deepen as she is more assured abt my determination to change and nt to get into fights again..... My feelings for her was more intense... as i really cherish her even more.....

[simifly]

Wonderfully written.

Bro Zerofighter, this for u…

不在乎天长地久, 只在乎曾经拥有.

[zerofighter]

Bro simifly... 不在乎天长地久, 只在乎曾经拥有. kam sia for this word... That is what i always used to comfort myself... but bro but at times i still cant forget her completely... though i am married now with 2 kids... By rite.. i shd have forgotten her long ago... but the memories of her will still crept back to me...
Perhaps this is my first relationship... Perhaps i have went through alot with her.... the eventual break up with her.... always trying to seek back the feel with other girls after the break up... but somehow something is always missing... things were nt that complete.... But i thank God for her... if nt for her.. i believed that i would have end up in boys home or even be jailed... I would nt have remove my clothes and lead a normal life...

This song for her:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48Y3npvmK90

Though u r no longer part of my life...
but i will always cherish the memories i once shared with u....

[simifly]

So hows Yvonne now?

Does yr wife hav lots of same character as Yvonne ?

[zerofighter]

Gd question! .... nope they r different... my wife can be very direct at times...me did nt contact Yvonne since she was married......

[simifly]

gd questn.... nope they r different... my wife can be very directt times...me did nt contact uvonne since she was married......

Then it's something else u can't put down.

Maybe like wat u say without her, u are still wondering on the streets.

Or

Maybe she's better on bed?

Or

Wait for yr story first :D:D:D

[BMW69]

Then it's something else u can't put down.

Maybe like wat u say without her, u are still wondering on the streets.

Or

Maybe she's better on bed?

Or

Wait for yr story first :D:D:D

For me bro, it's everything about her. From her looks to get character to her voice to her smile. Just can't let go of her

[simifly]

Just sharing what I read from Facebook.

Its an interview for a 98 year old lady with 3 failed marriage.

This what she answer when asked which man she love most.

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So you’ve had three husbands and one lover. Which one were you the most mad about?

My lover.

Why?

An affair is very different than a marriage because you can break it off at anytime. And this man made life very exciting. It was never dull around him. I like when a man has money and he can take me places and buy me things. All women do. Don’t let anybody tell you differently, okay? If he would buy his wife a present, he would buy me a better one. He once bought her a diamond heart, and the next day he brought me a gorgeous diamond bracelet, very expensive. You see what I’m telling you? Tit for tat. Nothing was too good for me.

[belvedere]

good story bro, do continue!

[zerofighter]

Then it's something else u can't put down.

Maybe like wat u say without her, u are still wondering on the streets.

Or

Maybe she's better on bed?

Or

Wait for yr story first :D:D:D

Bro simifly... nope we did nt cross the boundary throughout the 5 years we were together... she is a decent girl...

What i cant put down in the kum cheng ba...

[simifly]

Bro simifly... nope we did nt cross the boundary throughout the 5 years we were together... she is a decent girl...

What i cant put down in the kum cheng ba...

Wow 5yrs together, quick quick carry on yr story.

Eager to knw what happened…

Give her a call, ask her out for kopi.

U should knw what I mean :D:D:D

[Syncopation]

Suspense is building up. Don't leave us off the cliff :D:D:D

[zerofighter]

Wow 5yrs together, quick quick carry on yr story.

Eager to knw what happened…

Give her a call, ask her out for kopi.

U should knw what I mean :D:D:D

Bro of course i know what u meant lah...
Cannot la as both of us are married... Furthermore... believe it or nt... i do nt lust towards her as compared to other women.. She is one of the few women who i dun lust after... though after my break up with her... i turned into a horny bastard visiting Geylang and Health Center during army days...

Bro simfly if we are born in the same year and same school.. i am sure that u will be one of my smoking buddies and my brother ( Perhaps even kena public caning together for smoking.. Whahaha)...

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Back to the story...

After the incident it brought us closer than ever... Dec holidays soon came and i spent it on studying... ( Going through the weaker subjects... Maths.. Physics and chem are my weakest subject).. At times when i am really stressed out with my studies.. i would drop by the arcade and have a game of street fighter to de stress a bit... Of course dating is still the most memorable memories with her... we cant venture out that far... but we would always meet at the playground and chat with each other... At times... we would go to east coast and window shopping if her dad was kind enough to spare her more time for going out... I would cherish every moment with her and time seem to pass by faster with her around... Meanwhile my craving for cig is nt that strong anymore... A woman can have strange effects on a man ba... i am careful in my dressing too... no more unbuttoning the first button on my shirt and rolling up on 2 rows on my sleeve liao and have to learn to walk without the wind anymore... ( Bro simfly u shd know what i meant rite... Whahaha)... in case people will jio meng me on the streets...

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The Dec holidays soon came to an end and we r back to school again... Somehow i am abit worried as this is her final year with the school... ( My concern/fear is whether her feelings will change after she go to JC.. with her results she can easily go to JC).... Remember the difference in the educational status between us... The words of us being together is no longer a secret in the school... As usual there is alot of gossip going on... especially from her classmates... thank goodness Yvonne can take it well...

Yvonne: Aiya dun bother abt them... let them say whatever they want...
Me: Do u have any regrets being with me?...
Yvonne: Siao... y do u say that?
Me: i meant u can have better choices... seem that Guohua is going after u...
Yvonne: Do that means i will choose boys like that steven etc who is a heart breaker to be my bf...
Me: No lah that is nt what i meant...
Yvonne: Dun be silly.... wo bu hui bian xin de ( My feelings will nt change de)
She begin to sayang my cig butt wounds...

I draw her closer to my arms... ( we r on the bus heading to the airport again... wen xi gong ke.. study together)...

Yvonne: Ni Fang Xin.. that Guohua will nt bother me anymore... i told him that i am attached le....

The days at the airport was indeed those moments which i enjoyed with her... she is a detailed person who is very smart with her studies and a gd tutor too but i always feel bad whenever i cant help her with her studies...

Me: Baby... any problem...
Yvonne: Cant seem to understand this topic well...
Me: Would it be better if u can join yr classmates for studies together...
Yvonne: Y
Me: At least they would be able to help with yr studies... ( Same level as u mah)
Yvonne: Huh... but u will be alone...
Me: This is yr O Levels this year... better focus on yr studies.. u always help me with these easy questions... wait ur brain become rusty too...
Yvonne: K loh... but what abt u?..
Me: Dun worry abt me... i can form my study group too... Now i have more study type of friends liao...
Yvonne: K loh...

[simifly]

Will definitely be buddy if same time same sch.

I m actually quite famous in school one.

Lots of junior knw me but I don knw them. Hahahaha

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( Bro simfly u shd know what i meant rite... Whahaha)... in case people will jio meng me on the streets...

Bro zerofighter, my time was spend in FIRE tea dance era. ;););)

Fashion that time was wearing branded like Versace, Armani, JPG, MCM…

So are u older or I m older ?[/QUOTE]

Brother...I believed that i am older than u.. i am born in the mid 70s where fire is in the era... and gun fights shows of chow yun fatt... our top hits that time... Every ah beng vows to be like him! Zhong YI QI!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aPGRWdYD9Dk

One of the great movie which i like!

[zerofighter]

Bro simifly if i do nt guess wrongly... u shd be born from 1980 to 1983... Correct bo?....

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Back to the story.... would nt have the time to write on weekend when wife is around...

Though we dun study together le... ( Wen xi gong Ke) but we would take whatever spare time to meet together... Yvonne will call me every nite to chit chat before we go to bed.... Nt forgetting abt my closest brothers fatty and Ah Keong( They have passed their sec 3). At times we would still meet up at my house void deck for tcss after they r done with zai dui meetings...

Fatty: Wow cheebye u really humchee... dress like a gd boy liao...
Ah Keong: Knn... even cut yr hair cut... now look like a nerd... ( Whahaha)
Me: Knn... now i really getting humchee... scared people jio meng me on the streets especially with Yvonne...
Fatty: btw how r u and sao zi getting on?..
Me: Good... so far we seldom quarrel...
Ah Keong: Must be u give in to her lah... rite...
Me: Aiya... we have to give in to women one lah... if nt more quarrels rite.

Fatty: For me i dun care... one gone.. one come in.. ( He is referring to gf)
Ah Keong: Correct la.. everyday face the same girl also sian...
Me: funny leh.. i never feel this way leh...
Fatty: u really like her mah... for me... i dun feel anything for any girls yet...
Ah Keong: Except on the bed!!! ( Whahaha)
Fatty: Up her yet?.. his face turn serious...
Me: No siao she is a very decent girl...
Ah Keong: Wha lau u can tahan...
Me: funny also.. i never think of that thing with her....
Fatty: no worries... i will get u a sotong... up sotong better... ( Whahaha)
Me: Knn... dun need lah... just use hand with lots of soap can already...
Ah Keong: Knn now u always hang out with those guai guai friends for studies.. will despise us or nt..
Me: Siao... u all r my best brothers... fight... play games.. smoke together one..
Fatty: Have a smoke then...
Me: Dun tempt me lah... pass me yr hacks lah... ( we all laughed...)


As a matter of fact.. i still enjoy the times spend with my brothers instead of the guai guai study friends... Till today fatty is still my best brother.. would sometimes go for drinks with him though we r married and have our own family commitments.. We really know each other well by now... too well in fact...)

Aside from dating and meeting my buddies... much time was spent on Preparing for my N levels as i am determined to do well.. cant afford to fail and serve long service award for the school...

[zerofighter]

Will definitely be buddy if same time same sch.

I m actually quite famous in school one.

Lots of junior knw me but I don knw them. Hahahaha

Steady brother!!!

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Time flies and soon the end of the year is approaching again with me and Yvonne finishing our exams...

Yvonne: Confident mah?..
Me: no problem shd be able to do well...
Yvonne: That is great... r u troubled today?..
Me: No lah i am k....
Yvonne: Cant bear to part with me rite...
Me: Soon u will leaving this sch le for JC... i will miss u de...
Yvonne: Siao just a change of places... i am still yr gf mah...
Me: Wait u go there... get to know better guys how?...
Yvonne: Remember what i told u b4.... wo bu hui bian xin de( My feelings will nt change de)
Me: Wo ke yi fang xin le ( I am rest assured now)

Results were soon released and i score a 6 for my best 3 and was promoted to sec 5... Fatty and Ah keong.. both of them all scored a 9 or 10 for the best 3 and promoted as well... Those 2 really expert... study last minute also can passed... cos none of us want to get long service award in the sch...

Yvonne done well in her O and managed to get into a top JC along marine parade road.. ( Bros by now shd be able to guess the JC she went rite)...

[simifly]

Check PM, if not this thread like machiam we two person conversation.

[LiverBird8]

Bro simifly... nope we did nt cross the boundary throughout the 5 years we were together... she is a decent girl...

What i cant put down in the kum cheng ba...

When we are young.. i think our emotions and feelings towards people are more pure and straight-forward..

Moreover, you must have felt so strongly towards her and love her so much that you're willing to quit gang and smoking for her.. those strong feelings can't nvr be forgotten easily...

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The difference in our sch does nt deter our relationship in any way.. i will still remember i will always wait for her at the sch bus stop. Usually her classes end later than me as she have lecture till abt 4pm.... After sch i would take bus 13 to wait for her then... and that is the year when i own my first pager...

Yvonne: R u tired? after sch still have to come here...
Me: No lah... quite enjoy coming here...
Yvonne: Y leh?...
Me: This place always remind me of u... near east coast first time hold yr hands...
Yvonne: U ah...
Me: U look nice in this uniform...
Yvonne: Thanks...
Me: how is sch today..
Yvonne: Tiring loh... so much new things to learn.. then here students snobbish.. look down on our sch...
Me: dun give yrself too much pressure.. u can do it de...
Yvonne: What abt u... have u been lazing without me around...
Me: Nope i very hardworking now...
Yvonne: Zhen de ma?...
Me: Zhen de...
Yvonne: Gd boi... we go east coast for a walk k...
Me: Hurray... i love that place!!!

[zerofighter]

Check PM, if not this thread like machiam we two person conversation.

Roger. Thanks for yr reminder......

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Anyway back to the story...

Those r the days with Yvonne when she was in college... I would always sent her hm from sch... really missed those days when i would do my hmwork in Marine Parade Library while waiting for her to finish sch... It is a stressful period for both of us as we have to prepare hard for the exams... Of course whatever time we have.. we would still date each other... feelings for each other remain unchanged...

Just some sharing... this is one of the songs which both of us loved... would always tune in this song while on the bus together....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wmo0nn5PQ_c

Hope that u guys like it...

[kelvin155]

Good story and song.... This story touches my heart. Keep it cumming TS!!! :)

[water_boi]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wmo0nn5PQ_c


great writing bro.. remind me of my own secondary sch days.. those really were the days...

give u my humble points.. :D:D

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Bros.. thank you for yr kind support in this thread... Paiseh there r no sex stories in this thread... Nevertheless thank you guys for yr kind support.. i am coming to an end of this story as the next chapter will lead u guys to the my eventual break up with her... which i can still remember the scene so well even till today....

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Another year have passed and the results for my O level have been released.. Score a total of 3 for the best 6... As usual i score all the Tua Peh Kong for my maths and combined science... have C5 for these both subjects... Knn cannot go to JC... Entry level for JC must be within 20 points for the best 6. Bobian my only option is either poly or 3 years Pre-U. Being poor in Maths.. i went to pre u and got into one of the Pre U which is near to my sec sch...

As usual Yvonne did well and went to JC 2
The day when the results was released... Yvonne pei me to sch to collect my results...

Yvonne: How is it?
Me: Nt my ideal score...
Yvonne: Let me take a look...
Me: Very bad rite...
Yvonne: Nt really at least u can still go Poly or Pre U...
Me: But i will be 2 years slower than u liao..
Yvonne: i dun mind... anyway u have already done yr best....
Me: Thanks....

Saw fatty and ah keong walking out from the sch hall..

Me: How is it?..
Fatty: What to expect.. ITE lah!!! knn fuck english!!! cheebye all passed except for this damn fucking subject!
Me: Aiya no worries..u can do well in ITE too... Keong what abt u..
Keong: Same lah.. all Tua Peh Kong... knn ITE too
Fatty: Let enrol for the same ITE and sian all the girls there!
Keong: Gd idea... btw how is yr results.. He took my results slip before i can even reply...
Keong: Knn! 23 points for best 6... never know u can study so hard...
Fatty: Steady.. at least u gave our normal stream students some face!!! Sao zi k with yr results..
Me: She is pleased...
Fatty: Sao Zi r u proud of him... ex ah beng who can study...
Yvonne: Yup i am pleased with his results... ( Yvonne is smiling happily)

For that moment i really feel relieved when i know that she dun mind my results.. i am hoping to go to JC in order to shorten my gap with her... Guess that i think too much liao......

[BMW69]

Woah bro. I read already xim tia. Don't want to read also finger itchy come and open. You're good la. Write very well.

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The days in Pre U is rather challenging as there are new things to learn... Economics is my worst subject... which i really hated all the Supply and Demand theory etc... Soon i have a group of friends for study group... ( A mix of boys and girls). The boys there r more guai compared to my sec sch though there r some semi bengs ( nt too gd... nt too bad those kind of people). This is the kind of people which i like to hang out out as those too guai is really too bored at times!... Of course my best buddies remain as Fatty and Ah Keong who seem to share a special bond with me...

Sharon: Want to join us later for group study?
Me: No lah... u guys go ahead... have to sent my gf hm later... sorry...
Sharon: k...
Ah Yong: hey u nt tired meh... everytime have to sent her hm...
Me: No lah.. nt tired at all... in fact i look forward to that....
Belle: So sweet...
Sharon: Heard that u quit smoking cos of her...
Me: Yup... anyway smoking also nt gd for health and cig money keep increasing...
Bruce: Yeah lah... knn cos of that supply and demand curve...
Me: Dun talk abt that! it really bored me... have to ciao now... ( Soon i was on the way to sent Yvonne hm)

It was nt long before i meet up with Yvonne and as usual she was smiling and linked her arms in me...

Yvonne: Waitied long?
Me: No lah.. just arrived only...Let me carry yr bag..
Yvonne: Dear... i want to go to Mac for fries and do my hmwork there?
Me: Gd idea since it is so hot... can go and catch some air con...

( With her by my side.. we soon took the bus to our usual Mac at Balestier Point)..... She was lying on my shoulder and soon fall asleep.. Looking at her face.. i longed to kiss her on her forehead but i did nt so do as i do nt want to wake her up from her sleep...

Reaching Mac.. i go ahead to order her meal for us when i bump into Bruce they all...

Me: Today u do yr group study here...
Bruce: Yeah lah.. later tired already.. can go for a game for snooker...
Me: I c... k ciao as my gf is here...
Bruce: Bui swee... never intro yr gf to us... ( Soon my friends crowded around me)
Me: Oh yeah...
Me: Dear this is my classmates... allow me to intro and guys this is my gf Yvonne

Ah Yong: So u r Yvonne... his gf whom he always have rushed off to meet u.. whahaha...
Yvonne: So does he behave well at school?
Bruce: K lah...
Yvonne: What i meant is did he look at other girls in the sch?...
Ah Yong: No lah he very low profile de... no worries sao zi....
Me: K.. enough abt toking.. as she still have nt taken her lunch yet...
Sharon: Wow.. so protective towards her....

Soon me and Yvonne begin to settle down to our lunch... ( Late lunch liao)

Yvonne: how is yr relationship with yr new found friends?..
Me: k lah... but i still prefer my sec school buddies...
Yvonne: Of course... after all they have been with u for years liao...
Me: True...
Yvonne: Hmmn... how abt yr friendship with that Sharon?...
Me: Normal friends lah... Y...
Yvonne: Did u notice her funny expression in her eyes when u intro me to her just now?..
Me: No... aiya... dun think too much.. I have u liao... and me also nt good looking..
Yvonne: I scared u have 3 years itch... ( We have been together for abt 3 years le at that point of time)
Me: No lah... I may have 7 years itch nt 3 years itch.. Hahaha...
Yvonne: U dare and to my horror she started to bite me in my arms...
Me: Ouch... y did u do that?...
Yvonne: Cos i want u to remember me...
Me: No worries.. wo bu hui bian xin de... i only love u alone.... ( Looking at her tenderly in her eyes... i kissed her gently on her forehead)...

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When we are young.. i think our emotions and feelings towards people are more pure and straight-forward..

Moreover, you must have felt so strongly towards her and love her so much that you're willing to quit gang and smoking for her.. those strong feelings can't nvr be forgotten easily...

True... she is one of the special girls who have give me that Gan Xue ( Feelings) which cannot be found.... In my heart... i would always put her in my special spot ba......

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Soon Yvonne finish her A levels and went to Uni and i was promoted to Pre U 2... Soon the west side especially Bouna Vista become my haunt out.. cos i would always wait for her there to sent her hm... The stress level is even higher compared to her college days... and usually she would be stressed out... I would always crack some jokes to humor her and lend her my shoulders whenever she is tired... the Train journey back hm is rather long but i do nt find it a chore to sent her home.. As a matter of fact.. i really hoped that the journey would nt take longer so that i can have more time for her... Those r the days...

[prettymannequin]

Hahahah girls very perceptive... She immediately can tell Sharon got interest in you le.

Another great update, really reminds me of dates when we were much younger~

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Bros just to share this song... one of the songs which we always tune it to...
Till now.. this song always remind me of her...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7lCBLd1Txg


The lyrics was indeed well written and have a profound meaning to it...
Hope that u guys will enjoy....

[zerofighter]

Hahahah girls very perceptive... She immediately can tell Sharon got interest in you le.

Another great update, really reminds me of dates when we were much younger~

Agree.. Girls r very sharp in this type of thing... nothing can escape their eyes

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Back to the story... still have some time before lunch hour end...

The days at Pre U soon passed quickly and we dun have as much time to meet up as before since her days at Uni... Studies r rather hectic for her... As such weekend to us is especially important as we can spent time together after church service. ( I was soon converted to a christian after being influenced by her). At times when i miss her badly... i would make my own cards and write to her... ( Making cards is more sincere compared to just buying a card)... I would even hand mailed these cards by putting them in the letter box... so that she can received it on the same day... She will be thrilled and happy to received these small surprises... As for me.. her happiness in her smile is enough to make my heart melt... Things were done to maintain our relationship and soon at the age of 20... i completed my A levels and she was in second year of her Uni...

Meanwhile the days of my enlistment draw nearer and time to us was more precious.... Personally i am worried that my NS will affect our relationship( That is the main concern when army guys was serving NS)... will feelings changed due to the lack of time with our gf?... I still remembered just a few days before my enlistment... we spend the day at East Coast... and cuddled each other tightly at the same wave breaker whereby i first hold her hands...

That nite is beautiful... and my emotions rise... really hoping that time would really froze at this moment...

Yvonne: Take care of yrself in camp....
Me: i will...
Yvonne: And pls call me every nite when u r fee... i will wait for yr call.
Me: Wo Hui de... dun worry....
Yvonne: And dun be rude to Officers k....
Me: K.. i will be a gd boi....

Finally the day of enlistment soon arrived and i was sent to Nee Soon Camp for my 2 mths PTP and BMT. Otw to the camp.. i held her photo tightly...

Army for that time was really siong for us... ( Cb.. long time never run so much liao ever since quitting from gang....)... Ah Keong and Fatty r better than me... dun need to serve PTP as they have passed their Nafa test... unlike me who failed in my 2.4.... Knn...

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The first day of camp is really busy.. have to collect uniform and cut our hair straight botak!... Once after nite snack.. there is a long Q for the public phone.. knn only 2 public phones at the company line for so many of us waiting to call their loved ones.. ( Hp r expensive in my era... so bo bian we have to q loh)... Usually the average wait is least 20 to 30 mins before we can get to use the phone...

Me: Hello...
Yvonne: Dear... y u took so long to call me?...
Me: Sorry long Q... have to wait for ages before my turn... miss u badly...
Yvonne: Miss u too... ( her voice is choking with tears...)
Me: Wait for me k...
Yvonne: I will visit u on yr confinement week.... ( The first 2 weeks r confinement week.. cannot book out... wondered whether army still have this rule or nt)....
Me: Muack...
Yvonne: Pls take care of yrself in the camp k..
Me: i will.. sorry cant tok long... as there is a long q behind...
Yvonne: K loh...
Me: Love u....
Yvonne: bye.. tok again tmr k...
Me: Roger...

The visiting day soon arrived and it is indeed a great joy to c her... However for some of them... visiting days is also break up day... My section mate whom have steady gf for years actually bring her new bf to visit him... and proposed a break up.. Thank Goodness... Yvonne did nt do that to me... I thought to myself... but too bad cannot hug her in the camp....

Again... weekend meant a lot to us.. and time was being spent with her on every book out.. she would always accompany me to Yishun Mrt whenever on book in day.. ( Knn still remember every book in is damn fucking low morale..) but though we spent lesser time during my ptp and bmt... our relationship seem to be stronger... that is what seem to me at that pt of time... but things r slowly changing... much to the surprise and horror to me...

[kelvin155]

Good effort! camping here for more updates.

[water_boi]

Again... weekend meant a lot to us.. and time was being spent with her on every book out.. she would always accompany me to Yishun Mrt whenever on book in day.. ( Knn still remember every book in is damn fucking low morale..) but though we spent lesser time during my ptp and bmt... our relationship seem to be stronger... that is what seem to me at that pt of time... but things r slowly changing... much to the surprise and horror to me...

all the good and bad memories keep flooding back now.. thanks bro for the update. paiseh cant give u my humble points again.. :D

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all the good and bad memories keep flooding back now.. thanks bro for the update. paiseh cant give u my humble points again.. :D

No worries bro... thanks for yr support for this story... kam sia...

[LowKa]

Haha.
Bring back the memories.

The secondary school smoking. Ngee Soon camp BMTC 2.
Still remember the ninja company in BMTC 2.

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Soon the A level results was released in March... I did nt do that well for my A levels but still managed to scrape into Uni ( Arts and Social Science) with my donkey grades... scoring B, C and C for my 3 Principal subjects and with another 3 AO passes including GP. Results was nt ideal but Yvonne again accepted it with gd graces...

BMT finally came to an end and I am posted for CQ training... Heng nt those siong vocation like combat engineers... rifleman... if nt will die with cock standing!!! whahaha...

Unit life ( After CQ Course) is pretty relaxing for me as it is a stay out for me... Being able to get along with my men... i have no issues adjusting to unit life.... Now at least have more time to pei Yvonne... i thought to myself... but she always seem to be busy whenever i called her....

Me: Dear... I just reached hm... how is yr day today...
Yvonne: Busy loh with my research...
Me: then give yrself too much stress k...
Yvonne: I will... cant tok now.. a lot of things undone... call me tmr k...
Me: K... gd nite...

Feeling odd as our phone conversation seldom last less than 3 mins... Perhaps she was tired and busy ba... Give her some personal space... i told myself and told myself nt to imagine things........

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Soon i feel uneasy as our phone conversations was rather short... ( nt more than once... but quite a number of times le)... It is even more difficult to meet her now as she have very tight timing for her studies... Weekend is the only time when i can meet her... One sunday.. after church service...

Yvonne: I have something to tell u....
Me: Hmnn what is it?...
Yvonne: Shall we cool off for 2 weeks?...
Me: Y... i dun understand...
Yvonne: I cant tell u what is going on now.. guess i just need some time to cool off...
Me: did i do anything wrong?...
Yvonne: Nope u r still the same old u... nothing have changed for u...
Me: K.. can i call u during this 2 weeks?...
Yvonne: Nope... thanks....
Me: All rite then...

With this statement.. she headed off to the bus stop alone.. feeling lost and helpless... i wandered off alone to Arcade games centre... hoping to distract myself from the worries....

Those 2 weeks r indeed the worst times of my life.. I have no mood to do anything rite and even nearly get into trouble with Encik for nt doing anything rite...

The days of waiting was soon over and i received a phone call from Yvonne on a fri nite after i reached hm from camp....

Yvonne: Let meet up tmr for evening service.....
Me: K....
Yvonne: K.. c u at my void deck at 5pm....
Me: All rite..... ( Somehow i can sense she is calm but rather cold)...

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The next day as we were heading off to the church... As usual on the bus journey... we tuned in to the songs...

Yvonne: There is one song which i would like u to hear....
Me: K....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-K29YKUosA

As i listened to the song.. my heart froze.. the lyrics does nt bode well...

Me: It is rather a old song now during our sec sch days ba.. ( i tried to break the silence)
Yvonne: Yup.. but when i listen to this song again.. it bore a new set of meaning to me now...

There was a long pause... The bus journey with her... for the first time seem like ages to me.... Finally we reached the church and i was really fearful nt knowing what will happened next.....

[nottyboyforever]

The next day as we were heading off to the church... As usual on the bus journey... we tuned in to the songs... Yvonne: There is one song which i would like u to hear.... Me: K.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-K29YKUosA As i listened to the song.. my heart froze.. the lyrics does nt bode well... Me: It is rather a old song now during our sec sch days ba.. ( i tried to break the silence) Yvonne: Yup.. but when i listen to this song again.. it bore a new set of meaning to me now... There was a long pause... The bus journey with her... for the first time seem like ages to me.... Finally we reached the church and i was really fearful nt knowing what will happened next.....

Bro,

Really admire u for the story.
Although no sex part in the story, this is the one I kept on looking for update from time to time (not even day to day).
I really like ur writing style.
And since it's a true story as u mentioned, it really touched.
Now my heart about to stop and frozen as urs bro.

Please continue.
Although I kno the ending will not be a good one, please continue bro.

Thx

[prettymannequin]

Waiting for 24hrs to be over so that I can up you bro. Really love your story, I can literally feel the emotions.

[Suckmedry]

pls continue brother!!!!!!

[Syncopation]

camping liao!

[whatshouldiuse]

I shouldn't be reading this story at 3 am as it's easier to get emotional under the peacefulness of the night. I read the last few parts quite ximtia. :(

[simifly]

Quite a lot of break off during my Ns time also, my platoon even hav one AWOL after Gf broke off with him.

I bought diary for myself & Gf to keep update of our happening every day. So every weekend after booking out, we would exchange our diary to read.
My platoon mates was so surprise that my gf knw every details of our fun in camp. I wrote every night without fail.

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The church service soon ended... Somehow i feel more peaceful after service.. praying that i would be able to take whatever blows which may come along the way....

Yvonne: Shd we grab a bite at the hawker center?
Me: Y nt... u miss yr Fried Kway Tiao rite...
Yvonne: Yup...
Me: Wait for me.. k while i help u to order... ( I ordered her sugarcane and proceed to the stall)

As usual the q at the Fried kway tiao stall was long.... but it does not matter to me now as it may be my last time buying her Fried Kway Tiao... My heart was filled with sadness once i have this thought... if only... if only... i can buy it for her again.... but deep inside my heart.... i was mentally prepared for the worst...

Me: Here u r... ( I forced a smile on my face)
Yvonne: Must be a long Q rite....
Me: it is k so long as u like it...
Yvonne: Thanks... ( Her voice choked)

Throughout the lunch... i remembered trying to crack jokes and tok as before as though nothing has happened... i cherish every moment with her... sharing the Ice kachang with her.......

Yvonne: Shall we go to the beach?...
Me: Our usual place... shall we?... ( Even though it is a long walk.. near to bedok jetty..)
Yvonne: k...

Soon we were heading off to the beach... our church was just a underground pass away from the beach... All along we were holding our hands tightly... I can feel a deep sense of turmoil in her heart... Perhaps she was thinking how to have a peaceful break up with me.. without hurting me to the max nor leave a deep scar in my heart.........

[zerofighter]

It was a long walk to our usual spot... All along... i hold her hands tightly as i know very soon i wun be able to hold her hand anymore....

Soon we reached the place....

Yvonne: How have u been for the past 2 weeks?...
Me: Very lost... not knowing what is going wrong with this relationship..
Yvonne: Actually deep inside yr heart.. u knew the issue already...

There was a short pause after this statement...

Me: Guess u r rite.. i just dun want to admit that this is the issue....
Yvonne: U know.. i have been thinking alot for these 2 weeks....

Once again there is a long pause...

Me: It is k.. just go ahead and express whatever is on yr mind now.. k...
Yvonne: Youth to a girl is important... and now that u r still in NS... have to wait 2.5 years before u complete yr army... after which another 3 years for u to complete yr Uni....
Me: I understand le....
Yvonne: It is going to be another 5 years before u can come out to work... dun think i can wait that long liao.....
Me: Yup... it is my fault... for nt being gd enough...
Yvonne: Pls dun say that... it is nt yr fault... i know that u have been trying very hard liao...
Me: I can fully understand yr concern...... after all it is unfair to u to keep on waiting for me....
Yvonne: Sorry..... i really owe u alot....

At this moment... my tears swelled in my eyes... and i cant help my tears from flowing down...

Me: Pls dun mention abt owe... where feelings r concerned... there is no rite or wrong ba....
Yvonne: Can i ask u something?...
Me: Yup....
Yvonne: If the clock can be wound back... would u choose to love me again?..
Me: YES... Wo Hui Yi Wu Fan Gu de qu ai ni... ( I will still choose to love u without any regrets)
Yvonne: Thanks... ( her voice is choking with sadness too... and soon we was in each other arms...

The sun is slowly setting by now....

Yvonne: Promise me something k...
Me: K i promise...
Yvonne: Pls dun get distracted by our break up... focus on yr army duties.. and study hard for yr degree k...
Me: Yup.. i will try to....
Yvonne: I will be very proud of u if u r able to obtain yr degree...
Me: k.. ( I nodded my head)....

Me: R we still friends?...
Yvonne: Of course.. u will always be my gd friend...
Me: Too bad our relationship cant last till marriage... ( My emotions rise again at this pt of time...)
Yvonne: U have been a gd bf... at least i dun need to worry whether u will be unfaithful to me... and i will never forget yr cig wounds on yr hands...

Gently she touched my scars again....

Me: U r my gf and it is my duty to protect u from all harm ma...
Yvonne: Remember that movie... Zhong Nan Hai Bao Biao we watched together.... that show really remind me of u....
Me: Y me...
Yvonne: That u dun dare to look even in my eyes when we r in sec 3... when u just dropped to normal...
Me: is it?...
Yvonne: Thanks for being a protective bf for the past 5 to 6 years....

Drawing her closely to me.....

Yvonne: After today...we will no longer be a couple...
Me: Let cherish every moment we have........

Bros just to share this song.. that is the last movie i watched with her... and till now.. this song will still remind me of her.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ky8gQQdXH84

Hope that u guys will like it...

[OweMeMoney]

Wah bro read already heart pain sia. Great story!!

[zerofighter]

Me: Thanks for going through with me for the past 5/6 years... if not i believed that i would have end up in boys home/prison....
Yvonne: Dun say that... u have put in effort yrself...
Me: i would nt have done that.. if nt for u...
Yvonne: Now u have to do it for yr own sake le... nt for anybody else.. k...
Me: k.. i will try....
Yvonne: Cannot just try.. u must do it....

Time flies... and it is time for me to sent her hm... The way back to the bus stop is sad but yet beautiful... that will be the last time i hold her hand walking along the beach... Sadness flooded my heart...

Walking towards the bus stop... we took bus 13 home again... drawing her even closer to me.. i really wish the bus journey will never end... Nevertheless it still come to an end eventually........

Sending her to the lift lobby... my tears start to flow again....

Me: I really cant bear to part with u...
Yvonne: Take the lift together with me then...
Me: K... ( Once inside the lift... i start to hug her tightly... knowing that it will be last few seconds ( Last hug) when i can hug her again....

The lift door soon opened...

Yvonne: Have to go already as u may miss yr last bus home.. ( By this time.. i have already moved house)....
Me: All rite... pls take care of yrself.....

She turned her head and headed slowly to her unit...... i stood there... trying to catch the last glimpse of her.......

That nite... is the worst nite of my life... the pain of losing her is really too unbearable for me to bear... i can take punches but cannot take the break up..................................

And here is the end of the story.. Before my memory fades... i have penned down my thoughts of her... The girl whom i cant forget... At times i really feared that i would eventually forget the feel of holding her hands again.. the feel of her hug... the feel of her gentle kisses... all these which was once part of my life with her.......

Would like to end the story with this song... Xin Bu Liao Qing....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dw-R85AcN_w

[zerofighter]

Thank you bros for the support for this thread. Appreciate it. Kam sia.

[coolermonster]

Thank you for your story. Deeply appreciate it.

[Tomatofruit]

Good write up. Thanks for bringing back some wonderful memories that has came to an end.

[CibLover]

Thanks for sharing TS.

Heartfelt recollection. Great read.

:)

[nottyboyforever]

Me: Thanks for going through with me for the past 5/6 years... if not i believed that i would have end up in boys home/prison.... Yvonne: Dun say that... u have put in effort yrself... Me: i would nt have done that.. if nt for u... Yvonne: Now u have to do it for yr own sake le... nt for anybody else.. k... Me: k.. i will try.... Yvonne: Cannot just try.. u must do it.... Time flies... and it is time for me to sent her hm... The way back to the bus stop is sad but yet beautiful... that will be the last time i hold her hand walking along the beach... Sadness flooded my heart... Walking towards the bus stop... we took bus 13 home again... drawing her even closer to me.. i really wish the bus journey will never end... Nevertheless it still come to an end eventually........ Sending her to the lift lobby... my tears start to flow again.... Me: I really cant bear to part with u... Yvonne: Take the lift together with me then... Me: K... ( Once inside the lift... i start to hug her tightly... knowing that it will be last few seconds ( Last hug) when i can hug her again.... The lift door soon opened... Yvonne: Have to go already as u may miss yr last bus home.. ( By this time.. i have already moved house).... Me: All rite... pls take care of yrself..... She turned her head and headed slowly to her unit...... i stood there... trying to catch the last glimpse of her....... That nite... is the worst nite of my life... the pain of losing her is really too unbearable for me to bear... i can take punches but cannot take the break up.................................. And here is the end of the story.. Before my memory fades... i have penned down my thoughts of her... The girl whom i cant forget... At times i really feared that i would eventually forget the feel of holding her hands again.. the feel of the hug... the feel of the gentle kisses... all these which was once part of my life with her....... Would like to end the story with this song... Xin Bu Liao Qing.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dw-R85AcN_w

Heart broke bro.
That's girls, they never think for future.
Since in the first place u already kno this end will come so u nv step in.
But she said her mind will nv change.

But what ever, hope & wish u had a wonderful family bro.

Thanks for ur sharing of ur memories

[simp2]

Bro, everyone had a past affair, yours is the sweetest and a very lovely way to part. No quarrels, no 3rd party and most importantly, friendship maintains.

[snake03hot]

Hi bro
Thank you for all post

[nitetcrawler]

thank you for penning your thoughts. remind me of a lot of things. have up your points for this story

Thank you bros for the support for this thread. Appreciate it. Kam sia.

[massage1001]

Awesome story bro, brought back all the memories of cig by stick and pager codes

[eddie2013]

Thank you bros for the support for this thread. Appreciate it. Kam sia.

Really remind me of my polytechnic days, shedding tears as i know the ending :(

Why always girls change mind in the end and will not wait, damn sianz (happened exactly to my very first relationship)

[prettymannequin]

Really heart pain man, but what a sweet story. Thanks for a great one. *choking back tears*

[comm]

nice story....and nice songs....

[LowKa]

Reminded me of my break up with my gf during my army days.
My first gf too.

[zerofighter]

Heart broke bro.
That's girls, they never think for future.
Since in the first place u already kno this end will come so u nv step in.
But she said her mind will nv change.

But what ever, hope & wish u had a wonderful family bro.

Thanks for ur sharing of ur memories

Thanks bro for yr best wishes for my family... u too..

As a matter of fact.. i dun really blame her for nt waiting for me... i believed her thinking must have changed after she went to Uni... so i cant really expect her to wait for me for another 5 years..... Since i choose this to take this gamble.. i must be prepared to lose ba....

The only regret is our relationship cant last till marriage... which left a certain emptiness in my heart ba....

[gonzalez]

thx for the story. well written.

[BMW69]

Woah bro. Just recovered and read the last 3 pages all at once. Sad sad story. What happened next though?

[zerofighter]

Woah bro. Just recovered and read the last 3 pages all at once. Sad sad story. What happened next though?

After the break up with her... we remain as friends.... Soon i begin to cheong Geylang and Health center during my army days... Took a few years to get over her until i meet my second gf... but that relationship does nt have a happy ending too... sigh...

Have nt been contacting Yvonne ever since she was married... Wonder how is she now?...

[comm]

haha....

who knows

[simifly]

Someone 心痒痒 (heart itchy) liao.

Ask her out for kopi if u wonder how she is now.

Maybe she's also thinking how's yr life now?

It take two hands to clap, will never sound if u use only one hand.

[zerofighter]

Bro simifly really know me well.... Whahaha...

[Tai_zi21]

Sorry to ask this noob ques TS

But this 5 years u never have sex with her? Nothing at all? Pure love?

Still it a very nice and sad love story! Keep it up :)

[zerofighter]

Sorry to ask this noob ques TS

But this 5 years u never have sex with her? Nothing at all? Pure love?

Still it a very nice and sad love story! Keep it up :)

Nope bro... As we r both christians... Cant have pre martial sex... Anyway.. Never thought if doing that with her... Though i started to bonk after my break up with her... But no matter how many girls i bonk... I still cant forget her.... Sigh....

[Tai_zi21]

Nope bro... As we r both christians... Cant have pre martial sex... Anyway.. Never thought if doing that with her... Though i started to bonk after my break up with her... But no matter how many girls i bonk... I still cant forget her.... Sigh....

Well tat for sure i guess! Imagine without her wat might have u become? Some Gang leader? Drug Dealer? Haha

She has change ur life But well i guess most of us dun get to married the one we love most in our life

Life a bitch :(

[zerofighter]

Well tat for sure i guess! Imagine without her wat might have u become? Some Gang leader? Drug Dealer? Haha

She has change ur life But well i guess most of us dun get to married the one we love most in our life

Life a bitch :(

Yup... That is life ba... Bros... Do u think i shd call her... Nt sure whether her no remain unchanged...

[MrBonker]

Everything seems like a city of dreams, I never know why but I still miss you.

[Tai_zi21]

Yup... That is life ba... Bros... Do u think i shd call her... Nt sure whether her no remain unchanged...

If i were u, i would call her for sure! Wouldn't wan to have any regrets in life. :)

[zerofighter]

If i were u, i would call her for sure! Wouldn't wan to have any regrets in life. :)

Quite true...

[takashi31400]

Quite true...

Hi bro,

Really like your story .Thanks a lot for sharing. Just my 2 cent of words,never call her since both of you already have your own family .Keep her in your mind as a good memory and wish her all the best .Dont do something you will regrat for you life......which i did that before....

[comm]

Takashi wad did u do.........

[ben.now]

Very nice story. Can almost feel what you are going through emotionally. Made me finish your story within 2hours.

Some memories are meant to be kept in a tiny compartment of the heart. I believe this is yours. Great memories flow out occasionally to warm the heart of yours.

Thank you for sharing yours. Greatly appreciated.

[MrStyleKing]

Great story TS !!

[zerofighter]

Very nice story. Can almost feel what you are going through emotionally. Made me finish your story within 2hours.

Some memories are meant to be kept in a tiny compartment of the heart. I believe this is yours. Great memories flow out occasionally to warm the heart of yours.

Thank you for sharing yours. Greatly appreciated.

Indeed u r rite.... Great memories r kept in s special compartment of my heart.... For thst dpecial someone....

[SGPools]

Indeed u r rite.... Great memories r kept in s special compartment of my heart.... For thst dpecial someone....

Same here as well ;)

[AhBoy67]

Hi bro,

Really like your story .Thanks a lot for sharing. Just my 2 cent of words,never call her since both of you already have your own family .Keep her in your mind as a good memory and wish her all the best .Dont do something you will regrat for you life......which i did that before....

I think the same that TS shouldnt call her and meet up. Cause life already move on so not necessary to dig up all the memories.

Time, situation and experience changes a person. So she may no longer the person you know during your schooling days when you meet her today. It will effect your memories and impression of her in your heart which you kept for so many years.

Thus, just let it be....and let her live on without disturbing her. Sometimes, there are things not need you to possess only can be happy. As long you know she will be happy in life then it warms your heart. Fine enough.

Cause I also did the same when I encounter my first love after 10years at a shopping mall saw her pregnant with her husband and a 3 year old daughter. We made eye contact; I know she recognise me but both of us didnt approach each other and walk pass through. As I know, we both move on and sweet memories will be kept deep down in our heart and only both of us know.

[zerofighter]

I think the same that TS shouldnt call her and meet up. Cause life already move on so not necessary to dig up all the memories.

Time, situation and experience changes a person. So she may no longer the person you know during your schooling days when you meet her today. It will effect your memories and impression of her in your heart which you kept for so many years.

Thus, just let it be....and let her live on without disturbing her. Sometimes, there are things not need you to possess only can be happy. As long you know she will be happy in life then it warms your heart. Fine enough.

Cause I also did the same when I encounter my first love after 10years at a shopping mall saw her pregnant with her husband and a 3 year old daughter. We made eye contact; I know she recognise me but both of us didnt approach each other and walk pass through. As I know, we both move on and sweet memories will be kept deep down in our heart and only both of us know.

Bro i think u r rite... it is nt rite to call her anymore as both of us are already married... That is what have been holding me back for the past years ever since we r married... it is better to keep things in this way. Kam Sia for yr advise... Appreciate it...

[EnigmaofSorrow]

Everyone has memories of the past, good or bad.

The important thing is you still have many good years ahead.

Thanks for sharing your memories bro.

[zerofighter]

Bros just to share this song...

劉德華 Andy Lau_吳倩蓮_天若有情 MV

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3QPKpyxB-0

Hoped that u guys will like it..... Thanks...

[Croupier]

very interesting story also.. remind me alot about my past, though i'm born much later.. my era was 3310 at secondary 3.

really love this forum, alot of things to learn from

[Xia406]

Me: Thanks for going through with me for the past 5/6 years... if not i believed that i would have end up in boys home/prison....
Yvonne: Dun say that... u have put in effort yrself...
Me: i would nt have done that.. if nt for u...
Yvonne: Now u have to do it for yr own sake le... nt for anybody else.. k...
Me: k.. i will try....
Yvonne: Cannot just try.. u must do it....

Time flies... and it is time for me to sent her hm... The way back to the bus stop is sad but yet beautiful... that will be the last time i hold her hand walking along the beach... Sadness flooded my heart...

Walking towards the bus stop... we took bus 13 home again... drawing her even closer to me.. i really wish the bus journey will never end... Nevertheless it still come to an end eventually........

Sending her to the lift lobby... my tears start to flow again....

Me: I really cant bear to part with u...
Yvonne: Take the lift together with me then...
Me: K... ( Once inside the lift... i start to hug her tightly... knowing that it will be last few seconds ( Last hug) when i can hug her again....

The lift door soon opened...

Yvonne: Have to go already as u may miss yr last bus home.. ( By this time.. i have already moved house)....
Me: All rite... pls take care of yrself.....

She turned her head and headed slowly to her unit...... i stood there... trying to catch the last glimpse of her.......

That nite... is the worst nite of my life... the pain of losing her is really too unbearable for me to bear... i can take punches but cannot take the break up..................................

And here is the end of the story.. Before my memory fades... i have penned down my thoughts of her... The girl whom i cant forget... At times i really feared that i would eventually forget the feel of holding her hands again.. the feel of her hug... the feel of her gentle kisses... all these which was once part of my life with her.......

Would like to end the story with this song... Xin Bu Liao Qing....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dw-R85AcN_w

Bro good writing. I really feel for you. So sorry to hear that you cannot be with the woman whom you love most. This is life, I guess. :(

[zerofighter]

Bro good writing. I really feel for you. So sorry to hear that you cannot be with the woman whom you love most. This is life, I guess. :(

Can feelings be supressed?... I am trying.... But the thoughts of her keep flooding my mind.... In this late nite.. I am stll struggling with my emotuons... Can she feel my emotions for her... Or hear my heartbeat for her.....

[kelvin155]

Can feelings be supressed?... I am trying.... But the thoughts of her keep flooding my mind.... In this late nite.. I am stll struggling with my emotuons... Can she feel my emotions for her... Or hear my heartbeat for her.....

Bro i know that it is painful... But u have to let go.

[zerofighter]

These few days is really an agony to me... Struggling with my emotions... Was pretty bek chek yesterday.... Meetings drag and finally i have the time to call fatty and wass able to meet him last nite..

Fatty: r u k?..
Me: i am fine...
Fatty: y choose to meet here outside sch gate...
Me: dunno... Just want to come here..
Fatty: let grab some beer from the mama shop..
Me: gd idea... Mama shop still here but changr owners le..
Fatty: of course lah... So many years.. Things will change..
Me: true... But certain things remain unchanged...
Fatty: i know what is troubling u... Since u proposed meeting at the main gate of the sch..
Me: u really know me well... ( i took a deep sip of the beer).....

[zerofighter]

Bros... Pls allow me to pen down my thoughts as it may ease my pain... Kindly bear with me for any typo errors as my mind is a whirl... Thank you...

Fatty: ready to tok now?...
Me: bro... U know this school gate really remind me of her...sending her home..
( my emtions rise and i find it hard to carry on..)
Fatty: it have been so many years and u still cant get over it completely...
Me: i wish i could...
Fatty: btw how r things with sao zi..
Me: same thing loh... Work... Come hm take care of kids... Weekend family day..
Fatty: yeah lah... This is the norm... What i meant is.. Any quarrels...
Me; y do u ask this wuestion...
Fatty: just ans me...
Me: yup... But things will blow over soon..

Fatty: with u giving in again...
Me: she is my wife mah...

[zerofighter]

Bros to be continued... Paiseh as i am unable to focus with too many things in my heart... Sigh.. I really tulan myself... Tok cant tok well.. Now write also have problems!

[zerofighter]

Sorry guys.. abit emotional last nite... today is much better after a rest... and straightening of thoughts... anyway back to the story...

Fatty: Relax bro... what i am trying to say is this.... you do nt have a blissful marriage.. that is y u r always thinking of Yvonne....
Me: Hmmn.....
Fatty: Remember before yr marriage... we ( Some of the brothers) actually warned u nt to marry Sao Zi as she have terrible mood swings...
Me: Aiya now is nt the rite time to tok abt all these... i have already married her and she have bore 2 kids for me... it is my duty to take care of her...
Fatty: True but put aside responsibility.. do u have any love for her...

There is a pause after this question... and i continued with my beer....

Me: I wun say love.. but still have feelings for her de.. after all we have been together for so long already...
Fatty: The point is... r u happy?...
Me: But that does not meant i can use this as an excuse to look for any women ( Justify my action)?.... I choose her as my wife.. then i must be responsible for the choice i make...
Fatty: I am nt trying to tell u to look for other women... given yr character u wun do it de... but u can always retain Yvonne as yr soul mate if she still share some feelings for u....
Me: What?....
Fatty: C a soulmate is different from lovers or FB.. does nt have any physical intimacy but a close emotional connection... at least the two of u will be able to share yr thoughts to each other....

This statement from fatty lead me deeper to my thoughts as i continued with my booze....

Me: Does nt seem to be a gd idea.. i am worried that i may end up hurting Yvonne...
Fatty: So long as u know yr limits... dun think u will hurt her in any ways... now the main concern... is whether her contact no remain unchanged after so many years....

As this pt of time.. i am really tempted to call her... just a phone call away...

Fatty: The choice is yours... it is just a phone call away...
Me: I would like to... but...
Fatty: no more buts just face it with a ping chang xin... ( Face this issue with a normal mindset) and c how it goes...
Me: if her contact no changed how?..
Fatty: Knn u damn slow today... do u still have her email address?...
Me: of course i still remember...
Fatty: Leave it to fate ba.. if u r destined to meet her again.. let her be contactable...
Me: let me think....
Fatty: Stop tormenting yrself and make a choice... knn last time u go for fights also nt humchee... take weapon and chong already.. now this simple matter u have to think so long...

Me: k then... but is it late to call at this hour?..
Fatty: Nt even 10pm yet.. call or dun call?...

[kelvin155]

Waiting for the next update! Cheers!

[zerofighter]

Sorry bros.. just back from a discussion... Back to the story...

At that moment i really struggled with myself... thinking whether this is the correct thing to do... nevertheless in the end.. i finally decided to call her...

Me: Pass me my phone.
Fatty: Steady. That shd be the way.

Immediately i dial her number....

Ring... ring... ( Thank Goodness that this no is still in use...)

Those few moments of rings is the longest wait in my life... my heart was pounding fast......

It was nt long before someone ans a call...

Hello... ( This voice is so familiar.... this is truly the voice of Yvonne)...
Me: Hi... Yvonne....... ( My voice tremble with excitement)
Yvonne: Sigui disappear for so long... how have u been? ( She sound surprised)
Me: Fine...
Yvonne: Married already?...
Me: Yup with 2 kids now...
Yvonne: Sound gd.... ( there is short pause)

At that moment i can hear the background of kids crying at that moment...

Yvonne: Cant tok over the phone.. how abt meeting up for some catching up?..
Me: Gd idea... when will u be free?...
Yvonne: How abt tmr as next week i will be busy...
Me: Okay... okay... we will meet after work then...
Yvonne: Meet u at suntec tmr at 6.30pm.. we will go for dinner...
Me: Roger! ( My heart is leaping with joy)
Yvonne: C u.. have to go now...

I ended the phone call... Fatty look at me grinning at me...

Fatty: Zu ding u will meet her...
Me: Bro i am meeting her tmr....
Fatty: Gd.... i am glad for u....
Me: Thanks...
Fatty: No worries... at least u can finally meet her again after all these years of longing to c her again.....
Me: Dunno whether i am doing the rite thing...
Fatty: Dun think so much since u have taken the first step already....
Me: True...

We continued with our booze and soon we headed off home... I reached home that nite... my heart filled with the thoughts of her...should i go ahead and meet her tmr... how would the meeting with her tmr... will it end up well... etc... those questions keep popping up in my mind and i took a long time to fall asleep despite of the booze.....

[prettymannequin]

Omg... really excited for you. Can't wait for an update~

[simifly]

Wah, came in a bit late. So much happening to bro zerofighter liao.

Anyway wish u all the best in whatever u do.

A lot of bros will be here to SUPPORT u.

[zerofighter]

Wah, came in a bit late. So much happening to bro zerofighter liao.

Anyway wish u all the best in whatever u do.

A lot of bros will be here to SUPPORT u.

Thanks brothers for yr kind support...

[AhBoy67]

" ( My voice tremble with excitement)"

Bro zerofighter,

I TOTALLY know how you felt.....really remind how I feel to when call "the one you really love"

[ben2011]

A big thump-up for u! Such a gentlemen during the break-up....

I got a sad story with my ex also, but its the past...nothing to share here:)
And till today, i would still remember some of our dates and sweet moments, however, when she called me back, i rejected the chances to meet her...coz her betrayal hurt me badly.
We never remain in contact or even friend, envy u....ahhaha

From my exp, i would offer my 2 cents of thought....Family&wife remain family&wife. Yvonne has a special place in ur heart, just treat her as soulmate, as what Fatty said, he has a point.

Good luck!

[zerofighter]

A big thump-up for u! Such a gentlemen during the break-up....

I got a sad story with my ex also, but its the past...nothing to share here:)
And till today, i would still remember some of our dates and sweet moments, however, when she called me back, i rejected the chances to meet her...coz her betrayal hurt me badly.
We never remain in contact or even friend, envy u....ahhaha

From my exp, i would offer my 2 cents of thought....Family&wife remain family&wife. Yvonne has a special place in ur heart, just treat her as soulmate, as what Fatty said, he has a point.

Good luck!

Bri.. I totally agreec with u... Keeping her as a soulmate is much better than crossing any boundary.... It is fair to both sides....

[zerofighter]

Back to the story.

I went back to the office the nect day with sleeply eyes... Do nt sleep well at all... The day drag slowly with afternoon meetings... At times... I almost want to chicken out of the date...
In my heart.. I am seeking for advice to this issue... .. Cant focus at all...

[zerofighter]

Bros... Sorry for the delay as boss is around..

The day soon uended and i faster hand faster leg drove to suntec:cool:.... Ma..naged to reach early and grab some polo sweets along the way...
Standing anxiosly... I keep an eye for yvonne.... I can hear my heart beating furiously...
Be steady... I told myself.... Soon i can spot yvonne heading toward me.

She was smilng.....

Me: hi....
Yvonne: dai tou er(silly goose)... This is the nick she gave to me in sec 1.
Me: lucky u can still recoginize me....

[simifly]

Keep us in update if possible.

[ben2011]

http://youtu.be/rf-DjErAYx8

[ben2011]

How to post the whole video ah?

Anyway see this song fit ur feeling now bo?

[zerofighter]

How to post the whole video ah?

Anyway see this song fit ur feeling now bo?

Bro... Perfect song.... Yup the ending is nt the same... The person who i married is nt the person i loved the most.....

[zerofighter]

How to post the whole video ah?

Anyway see this song fit ur feeling now bo?

Bro... Usually what i do is bookmark the page.. Go to properties and go to location. Copy and paste the address...hope it help. Kam sia.. I love this song...

[ben2011]

haha... U r welcome.

Waiting for ur update:)

[zerofighter]

Paiseh brothers for the delay... Boss still around... Me still in office working.... A great thank you for the kind support for this story.

Yvonne: with the slight decrease in yr hair and the increase of yr beertummy... U did nt change much.
Me: oh really...
Yvonne: what abt me...
Me: u r still the same...
Yvonne: me gain weight le after giving birth...
Me: just baby fats... That is all.
Yvonne: still baby fats... Old fats le...she laughed..
Me: shall we have dinner here?
Yvonne: nope as this place remind me of work.

Soon we headed off to the car park as we decided to have dinnet near to her place.

As usual i tuned in to this music.. Xing bu liao qing as i am driving..

Yvonne: still listen to old songs...
Me: bobian... Lao lang listen to old songs... Anyway old songs r more meaningful ...
Yvonne: do u have christian music...
Me: yup i have... Quickily i insert a christian music disc in....
Yvonne: sound better... Certain songs can make us emotional....

[zerofighter]

All along... I was rather tensed up... Though she was trying her best to break the ice....

It was nt long before we reached the shopping mall and soon settled down to a quiet place for dinner.

Yvonne: so how is marriage life..
Me: k.... I ans after a short pause
Yvonne: does nt sound convicing leh..
Me: y do u say that...
Yvonne: u paused before answering me...

[zerofighter]

Me: u have guessed correctly... We do have some issues at times... Different ideas with the way we handle the kids...
Yvonne: hmnn... U must be the gd man.. And she is the black face rite...
Me: yup... Kids must have a happy childhood mah...
Yvonne: did u tok to her...
Me: tried to... But always end up quarreling... Sigh.. In the end... I still have to give in... So rather dun tok better... Just hide things in the carpet...
Yvonne: does nt seem yr usual way to manage issues...

[ben2011]

http://youtu.be/3_Agtu6rNpg

Testing.

Can't wait to see what happen next! Haha

[zerofighter]

The fact of the matter is.. The moment she told me to change to christian music... I knew she was trying her best to be rational abt the meet up with me... Bound by moral and christian values... One wrong move may lead to ither things... For me i will have to remain rational and composed though my emtions is rising... But i cannot hurt her in any ways... So just have to
supress my feelings and emotions for her...

[simifly]

Bound by moral and chrustian values... One wrong move may lead to ither things...

I am reading these while eating, saw this phrase I also tink not rite liao.

End up u post it out faster than me.

[zerofighter]

I am reading these while eating, saw this phrase I also tink not rite liao.

End up u post it out faster than me.

Me: as a parent... I do nt have the luxury of principles....cant stand on my rites and qquarrel with her in front of the kids rite...
Yvonne: true... U have really mellowed down through the years...
Me: all aleong.. I dun believed in quarrels... She is still a gd wife.. Just that wsrte have a different set of beliefs ba.... Enough abt me... What abt u...
Yvonne: my marriage life..... Just cant trust men when they r oversea......

Her eye expression told me that she would nt want to tok more abt this topic and i divert to ither stuff....

[zerofighter]

I am reading these while eating, saw this phrase I also tink not rite liao.

End up u post it out faster than me.

Yeah loh... This does nt bode well but at least we csn both be rational than do anything which is aganist our beliefs or moral values...

[prettymannequin]

Omg my heart cannot take the feels.

I nominate this for best story ever, okie? :o

[Tai_zi21]

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=vANtwIj8oMw

This song is for u bro

[zerofighter]

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=vANtwIj8oMw

This song is for u bro

Thanks bro for this song..
It touch me...

[simifly]

Yeah loh... This does nt bode well but at least we csn both be rational than do anything which is aganist our beliefs or moral values...

All ingredients are in pot liao (both of u having problem with spouse) so its up

to u whether u wan start fire or not...

Slow fire, big fire or even no fire is up to the chef to decide liao.

[davtandav]

All ingredients are in pot liao (both of u having problem with spouse) so its up

to u whether u wan start fire or not...

Slow fire, big fire or even no fire is up to the chef to decide liao.

Yeah a little fire could keep both of them warmth, but dont let the fire grow too big, or it might burn u and your loved ones...

[Tai_zi21]

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=BFCz1pm4xk8

My all Time favorite emo song hope it suit u too :)

[zerofighter]

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=BFCz1pm4xk8

My all Time favorite emo song hope it suit u too :)

Bro... This is one of my favourite song too... Will always listen to it ever since my break up with her....

This forum have lead me to a new bond with some of the brithers here.. Though we nevereven meet each other before... But there r seem to be a special bond between us... If nt for the support of u guys.. These few weeks is truly an agony for me.... Having to pen down my thoughts and going through the pain again... Nt forgetting the suoport given by those brothers and sisters for supporting this story... Kam sia...

[zerofighter]

Brothrrs... Lai a toast to our friendship!

Ta!!!

[zerofighter]

How to post the whole video ah?

Anyway see this song fit ur feeling now bo?

Bro here is our song...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rf-DjErAYx8

[ben2011]

Bro here is our song...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rf-DjErAYx8

wow....how to do it? teach me step by step le....haha...

[zerofighter]

wow....how to do it? teach me step by step le....haha...


My way may be abit conventional... anyway here it goes...

1) Copy the link in google
2) Once the music start to play... bookmark the page.
3) Then go to properties of that bookmark and click on the Location.
4) Copy and paste the address of the location in the place u wanted...

Yup that will be done.
Hopefully it will help u...

[zerofighter]

Bros sorry for the delay... was rather busy with work yesterday... reach hm abt 10pm... No worries... i am on leave today ( will bring the kids to the beach as it is Dec holidays) ... thus i will be able to finish the whole chapter by today... ( At least u guys dun need to read a small part... paiseh). Anyway back to the story.....

Soon we were talking abt our jobs since she is nt ready to share abt her marriage issues... She is a banker... Career path is rather smooth for her ever since she grad from uni....

Yvonne: So how is yr career?..
Me: Nt very smooth... me dunno how to third leg ( Curry favour) and tok...
Yvonne: This is what i like abt u... like to c u whenever u r tongue-tied.... so funny de...( She smiled) dun tok well... hmmn... that is u... dunno how to sweet talk but whatever u say... u meant it... at least ur words give people a sense of security ba...

At this statement.. i throw a quick glance at her eyes... and for that split moment our glances met each other... but i quickly withdraw it as i am worried that too much eye contact will somehow leak my feelings for her again...

There is a short pause as Yvonne is looking at my cig scars again as i am cutting the beef steak...

Yvonne: the scars is still very obvious...
Me: yup...
Yvonne: Did yr wife ask u how u get this wound...
Me: of course.. i just tell her that i got burned by someone else while in the pub drinking...
Yvonne: Such a lame excuse.. so did she believe it?..
Me: I dunno guess she give me some benefit of doubt ba..
Yvonne: Anyway it is gd that u did nt tell her abt this.. if nt she will hate me forever...
Me: True... that is y i kept it from her...
Yvonne: This scars is rather deep...

Again there is a pause after this statement...

Me: Take it as a remembrance of my feelings for u ba... ( Actually i would want to use the word love... but somehow i find this word too strong le... my emotions is slowly rising again... but i do my best to remain composed...)
Yvonne: Do u blame me for the break up.....
Me: Nope i did nt blame u before... u r rite... i cant expect u to wait for another 5 years for me... but i took a long time to get over u... Those days i will never forget... (At this pt of time my emotions was rising pretty fast and i know that tears is slowly welling again...) no appetite for dinner already....t
Yvonne: I am sorry... (her voice is choking too)... do u want to find somewhere quiet to tok...
Me: Yup.. where do u suggest then...
Yvonne: Sembawang beach then...just around this area.....
Me: k....

Soon we headed off to the car park again....

Yvonne: u know something.. i missed the times when i take buses/Mrt with u....
Me: Me too.. days were much happier then... even though we have take to wait for buses... and nt every bus is air -conditioned....
Yvonne: where r u heading.. this is nt the rite way to sembawang beach...
Me: Do u like to take a bus together with me to sembawang beach?...
Yvonne: K y not... she was smiling sweetly again....

It does nt take long for me to park my car at sun plaza....

Yvonne: Do u know what is the bus no to reach there...
Me: no but we can always ask the bus drivers...

It was nt long before we board the bus 882 to the beach again... I was pretty excited as it have been ages since we took a bus again... in fact this is the only time after break up that we can take a bus together...

Yvonne: Do u still remember that we came to this beach before...
Me: Yup that time is a sun during my army times... we came here taking bus 167 and after which u pei me to yishun mrt cos i need to book in....
Yvonne: Wow u still remember the details so well......
Me: I have never forgotten the dating days with u... it is always in my heart....

( At that point of time.. i really have a sudden impulse to hold her hand again.. but i did not as i do nt have the rite to hold her hand again.. we r both married.....)

[xxxaddict]

sweet agony… so near and yet so far, such a wide gap between the two of you, but can easily be crossed with a single step.

for you, stay in unhappy marriage also not good. for her, stay with unfaithful spouse also not good. for both of you, breakup family also not good. nobody know what their tomorrow will be like. there is no guarantee that staying in an unhappy marriage will make your kids happy. choosing to stay in an unhappy marriage, it is a painful decision. choosing to walk out of an unhappy marriage, is also a painful decision.

angmo countries have lots of divorce cases and blended families (i.e. step kids, step siblings etc, so it is not uncommon), it becomes quite common and people adjust to a new reality. but then again we stay in a conservative asian society, so things are perceived differently here.

actually, doesn't matter what you think is right/wrong, sometimes the price of happiness for the both of you can be expensive, but whether or not you are willing to pay the price is up to the both of you

[ben2011]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_QjGDIDqKzI

How about this song? Sorry i am abit dumb....cant really paste the video here. Lols...

So today will see the whole ending of ur story lo? Hurrays....
Hhaa...


Good luck!

[zerofighter]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_QjGDIDqKzI

How about this song? Sorry i am abit dumb....cant really paste the video here. Lols...

So today will see the whole ending of ur story lo? Hurrays....
Hhaa...


Good luck!

Bro gd job! pls dun call yrself dumb... u r nt... There r no dumb people in this world....

The lyrics of the song really expressed my feelings for her.... well written... every word is meant for her......

[zerofighter]

sweet agony… so near and yet so far, such a wide gap between the two of you, but can easily be crossed with a single step.

for you, stay in unhappy marriage also not good. for her, stay with unfaithful spouse also not good. for both of you, breakup family also not good. nobody know what their tomorrow will be like. there is no guarantee that staying in an unhappy marriage will make your kids happy. choosing to stay in an unhappy marriage, it is a painful decision. choosing to walk out of an unhappy marriage, is also a painful decision.

angmo countries have lots of divorce cases and blended families (i.e. step kids, step siblings etc, so it is not uncommon), it becomes quite common and people adjust to a new reality. but then again we stay in a conservative asian society, so things are perceived differently here.

actually, doesn't matter what you think is right/wrong, sometimes the price of happiness for the both of you can be expensive, but whether or not you are willing to pay the price is up to the both of you

Bro u r rite... so near but yet so far..... for the sake of the kids... we have to stay on to our marriage... i came from a broken family and i dun want my kids to walk the same path as me... too painful le......

[zerofighter]

Sorry bros... just back... was washing the hamster cages just now... bobian maid scared of hamster... so i have to wash loh.... Yup.. will be able to finish the story by today.... Back to the story....

It is a short journey to the beach... all along i really enjoy her feel by my side... at least ... this time... this is real.... she is really beside me now.... We headed off to the beach... i put my hands deep in my pocket... this is the only way to stop myself from holding her hands ba...

Yvonne: It is beautiful here.... nothing much have changed...
Me: Except that this area have been blocked off by the fence....

She slowly turned and look into my eyes....

Yvonne: Yr eyes tell me a million stories... would u like to share to me now?... Her voice as usual is gentle.. nt pressing at all....
Me: I.... I.....
Yvonne: Look into my eyes and tell me slowly......

My emotions rise at that moment again..... and i take a step backward...

Me: When u ask me do i blame u for the break up... my ans to u is no... but those days is really painful for me... do u know even rite now... when i think abt it.. i can still feel the pain...... still remember those days after my army duties... i will find myself wandering off to our sch main gates... thinking of those times when i will sent u hm... the same sch gate which u accompany me to collect my O levels results.... There r even times when i am really tempted to walk to yr house void deck.... to our playground where we always go... but i dun even dare... cos i dun have the courage to face u le... So many times... i can feel u r just beside me... going to our usual dating places would always remind me of u... (Tears r slowly flowing out again... and i turned my head and blink away the tears....)...

Yvonne: I am sorry....

Me: Till the day when i received yr wedding invitation card.... i knew that i cant contact u anymore... as it is no longer proper for us to keep in contact....
Yvonne: That is y u changed yr mobile and email address... and did nt even tell me yr new home address when u moved house...
Me: Yup....

There is a long pause after it........... Feeling too emotional and drained..... i really wish i can hug her at that moment....

Me: Can i hug u as a friend?.... ( I looked into her eyes and asked her)....
Yvonne: Yup...

Drawing her gently to me... we hugged each other... at that pt of time... my tears just flow out again....

Me: My feelings for u remain unchanged...
Yvonne: I know... i can feel it... it is strong but yet so gentle....

This is a hug... perhaps the last hug and i believed that i will never forget this hug... nt even to the last day of my life....

I withdraw gently from the hug...... as i am really fearful that one thing may lead to another...

Me: U know... sad to say that... u r the one who truly understand my thoughts much deeper than my wife... even though we did nt meet for years...
Yvonne: Yup as u did nt change much after all these years... u r the same old u... and yr feelings ba.....
Me: But we r both married now with kids.... there r responsibilities which we need to honour... in my eyes u r always a decent girl and u will always remain as one... i will do nt anything to tarnish yr reputation... nor hurt u in any ways....
Yvonne: Thanks for always sparing a thought for my feelings....

Suddenly she give me a hug... Soon we r hugging each other again....

Me: Do u know that i am struggling with myself for the past few days.. of whether to contact u again... i am scared.... am i doing the rite thing... the turmoil in my heart... i really feel emotionally torn apart.... ( I cried and soon she is crying too).....

Yvonne: As a woman... i really feel blessed to have a man who loved me for 20 over years... whose feelings remain unchanged after the passing of time... i really very Xin Fu le...

With this statement of her.. we hug each other more tightly....

Below is the song which can really express our emotions and feelings at that most intense moment... As i listen to this song.. my tears dropped again...

两颗心四行泪 - 蔡幸娟/彭伟华

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I78irEQbl44

Hope that u guys will enjoy...

[YangAog]

The end? Damn..... if it was me, I would really wished for things to go on.

[zerofighter]

The hug lasted so long... but it is enough to warm my heart for the years to come ba....

Yvonne: Getting late liao....
Me: Yup... i will sent u hm then....
Yvonne: By bus k?...
Me: Sure...

We then head to the bus stop.. how i wished that the bus will nt come so fast... the bus journey will nt end that fast too.... one wish remain in my heart... if only i can spent more time with her... we enjoy the bus journey home.. ( We sat close to each other but other than that... no other physical contact... no holding of hands etc)....

Yvonne: Next week u will be away for business trip... call me after u reach singapore.
Me: Yup i will... will call u once i am done with meetings...
Yvonne: And promise me no matter what happen.. pls dun change yr contact no again... k...
Me: k i promise...

The bus journey soon came to an end... and i stood there as usual trying to catch the last glimpse of her... As she was heading off again... i feel a sense of emptiness............ That is the nite when i feel so restless and emotional... so many thoughts rushed into my mind and heart... can even pen down my thoughts properly......

[zerofighter]

The end? Damn..... if it was me, I would really wished for things to go on.

Bro how i wish that things would go on too but it is impossible... we r both married... and i would nt do anything to hurt her... it is best to remain as soul mates... if nt things will get really messy if we cross the boundary... i do nt want this thing to happen.. nor let anything to ruin this friendship....

[ben2011]

Good story...carry on...

Exceptional story without hanky-panky, well done!

Rmb, she is your soulmates....forever...
If cross the boundary, u hurt ur kids,wife, parent, wife's parent, siblings and Yvonne kids, husband, parent, etc etc......
The list will be very long...based on my true story...sigh....And lastly you hurt Yvonne.

[YangAog]

Bro how i wish that things would go on too but it is impossible... we r both married... and i would nt do anything to hurt her... it is best to remain as soul mates... if nt things will get really messy if we cross the boundary... i do nt want this thing to happen.. nor let anything to ruin this friendship....

I understand fully. Thank you for sharing it out on here!

[Tazzymercs]

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释
这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是
所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

suits you bro zero

[zerofighter]

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释
这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是
所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

suits you bro zero

Thanks bro...

[zerofighter]

Good story...carry on...

Exceptional story without hanky-panky, well done!

Rmb, she is your soulmates....forever...
If cross the boundary, u hurt ur kids,wife, parent, wife's parent, siblings and Yvonne kids, husband, parent, etc etc......
The list will be very long...based on my true story...sigh....And lastly you hurt Yvonne.

Yup.. Bro u r rite.. Too many people involed liao.. She will always remain as my soulmate.

[Spud_Boy]

Yup.. Bro u r rite.. Too many people involed liao.. She will always remain as my soulmate.
once cross the line 1 time... it's all the way downwards....

better to have that 1 soulmate that understands u & able to ease ur pains rather than the 1 moment of pleasure..

it's always ideal if ur other half is also ur soulmate... but how many such couples are around us?? sigh...

all the best for u, bro... think there are a lot of similar ppl around... just have to suck it up & live the life best as 1 can..

[zerofighter]

once cross the line 1 time... it's all the way downwards....

better to have that 1 soulmate that understands u & able to ease ur pains rather than the 1 moment of pleasure..

it's always ideal if ur other half is also ur soulmate... but how many such couples are around us?? sigh...

all the best for u, bro... think there are a lot of similar ppl around... just have to suck it up & live the life best as 1 can..

Bro... I toally agreed with u....i will nt allow myself to cross the boundary.... The consequences to bear will be too great... Thank you for yr advise...

[zerofighter]

Bros just to share this song... sigh.. one of the songs which i loved....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vd12sjI9us4

Hope that u guys will like it...

[takashi31400]

Good story...carry on...

Exceptional story without hanky-panky, well done!

Rmb, she is your soulmates....forever...
If cross the boundary, u hurt ur kids,wife, parent, wife's parent, siblings and Yvonne kids, husband, parent, etc etc......
The list will be very long...based on my true story...sigh....And lastly you hurt Yvonne.

Totally agree with you Bro Ben2011 . Based on my true story too.......

[blade]

Nice story. Great Will power

[LTPGTD]

Bro, like i said, ur stories certainly brought back memories with all the old songs etc.......

That's y alot of guys can relate to the movie 那些年我们一起追的女孩.. And the song 那些年, as compared to girls who think that the movie is just another tw production, nothing special...

Very emotion stirring, which is leading to confused thoughts for you... Sometimes it might be better to keep the sweet memories inside and let them stay as memories... But we are not you.. Ultimately what happens next, like what some bros mentioned, would largely depends on both of you now... more so when the situation now just needs a small spark to ignite this fire....

On the other hand, don't mean to be negative, but have you wondered or thought about how your life would pen out if you really did married Yvonne? As the saying goes, 得不到的东西，永远是最美的... I always believe things happen for a reason... ;)

anyway, stay strong and hope things turn out well for all.... :cool:

[Tai_zi21]

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QivglZ-Q9Ps

Another old school emo song bro for u

[ben2011]

Totally agree with you Bro Ben2011 . Based on my true story too.......

Haha... Bro u also like me? Do the wrong decision?
Think back, I think I am wrong, but I did not regret as like bro TS feel towards his most loved one... I still think of her! But the diff is I won't ever contact her anymore....

[comm]

alot of nice songs here !

[zerofighter]

Bro, like i said, ur stories certainly brought back memories with all the old songs etc.......

That's y alot of guys can relate to the movie 那些年我们一起追的女孩.. And the song 那些年, as compared to girls who think that the movie is just another tw production, nothing special...

Very emotion stirring, which is leading to confused thoughts for you... Sometimes it might be better to keep the sweet memories inside and let them stay as memories... But we are not you.. Ultimately what happens next, like what some bros mentioned, would largely depends on both of you now... more so when the situation now just needs a small spark to ignite this fire....

On the other hand, don't mean to be negative, but have you wondered or thought about how your life would pen out if you really did married Yvonne? As the saying goes, 得不到的东西，永远是最美的... I always believe things happen for a reason... ;)

anyway, stay strong and hope things turn out well for all.... :cool:

Bro how true can this statement be: 得不到的东西，永远是最美的... yup u have raised an important question which i have also questioned myself at times.... but feelings at times r irrational ba.... but i will be very careful as i know that things can easily get out of hand if i dun manage it properly.. as far as possible.. hurting her is the last thing which i ever want to do.......

[zerofighter]

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QivglZ-Q9Ps

Another old school emo song bro for u

Bro this song power! really describe my feelings for her...

Kam sia for this song..

[SnowWolf]

Really can feel the emotions though out your story. The words are simply, the feelings deep. As other bros mention also, brings back memories and for me, also tugs at heart strings. Hope to read more bro..

[Rightwiper]

At times, it is really hard to do what's rational or just stick to how your heart feel...
I am actually going a similar stage with my partner...
Can totally feel how the ts feel back then... :(

[zerofighter]

Bros just a quick sharing of this song...

One of the songs which touched my heart....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8rT46hVQHIA

Hope that u guys will like it..

[simifly]

Anymore meetup with her ?

[zerofighter]

Bro... yup i actually meet up with her again.... quite a few things happen and nothing happen between us.. Guys.. i will be away for business trip and i will try to give a update every now and then... though nt long chapters due to time constrain. Meanwhile bros... enjoy and have a great week ahead though it is monday blues... but just endure... the day will be over before we know it...

[cusoon]

Anymore meetup with her ?

i also want to know hehe

agree some bros said 得不到的最美, but life need to go on, very touching memories :D

[cusoon]

Bro... yup i actually meet up with her again.... quite a few things happen and nothing happen between us.. Guys.. i will be away for business trip and i will try to give a update every now and then... though nt long chapters due to time constrain. Meanwhile bros... enjoy and have a great week ahead though it is monday blues... but just endure... the day will be over before we know it...

bro enjoy your trip ...

[zerofighter]

Bros.. just a quick update... Again pls bear with me for any typo errors as i am typing rather fast as i have to go through some work stuff again.

Received a what apps from Yvonne last week.. the day when i am on leave.

Yvonne: Free to join me for lunch later.
Me: Sure since i am on leave today.
Yvonne: C u then.

Fast hand fast leg... i drive to her work place and wait for her again....As usual i was early but it does nt take long for Yvonne to reach there.. ( She is usually a
punctual person). She look abit tired to me...

Yvonne: Hi.. sorry to keep u waiting..
Me: It is k as i just arrived....
Yvonne: let find a quiet place for lunch... i am starving...

Soon we settled down to a quiet place for lunch...

Me: u look tired to me...
Yvonne: Yup nt easy.. have to manage job and kids at the same time...
Me: Thank goodness u still have a maid to help u with the chores and cooking..
Yvonne: True... but i do have some problems trying to manage my boys when their father is not always around.
Me: Boys r always boys...
Yvonne: So any plans today...
Me: After this... i will bring my boys to the beach.... they loved the beach and can build sandcastle with them...
Yvonne: At least u still bother to spend time with yr kids... unlike him...
Me: Perhaps he is busy with his work... u know nowadays our work is so demanding...
Yvonne: Dun tried to cook up excuses for him.... men r always the same!

There is a short pause after this as i can sense that she is getting upset...

Yvonne: So u will away for business trip next week...
Me: Yup...
Yvonne: So must do entertaining again rite...
Me: Yeah loh... in our course of work... entertaining is inevitable...
Yvonne: That is what he would say too.... anyway.. u men love it wat... drinks...entertainment... girls all on company bill mah...

At that moment i knew instantly what is going on in her heart le....

Yvonne: If i request u nt to go... would u agreed to my request?
Me: I promise u that i will nt go unless it is necessary for me to attend...
Yvonne: Serious... but will it affect yr work..
Me: No lah... no worries... i can always leave it to my colleagues to do the entertaining for me... ( As a matter of fact... i knew the impact would be there as it is rude nt to entertain the clients... but i do nt want Yvonne to go through another round of hurts again.... )

The sorrows in her eyes is the pain i can feel in my heart and i really feel helpless at times...

Bro just to share this song before i go...
Will start to update u guys again whenever i am free... Thanks....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKpIZorDYNI&list=PL312B6EAA5A8F9535

鄭伊健 甘心替代你 ( Bro simifly... this is our song)

One of the songs which i loved... remember watching it during my army days after the break up with Yvonne.... the longing to protect her is always in my mind and heart.... for bros who r ex ah bengs before.. i believed can relate to me how i feel... that is whenever we r with our gf... there will be no jio meng on the streets... no more being ambushed.. bao chao by enemies....

Hoped that u guys will like it...

[Crazyfowl]

[QUOTE=waterlord;9975975]Wa nice story

[Tai_zi21]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nRJkOQKl788

Maybe u wanna say this to her bro

[simifly]

Bros.. just a quick update...

Yvonne: At least u still bother to spend time with yr kids... unlike him...

Yvonne: If i request u nt to go... would u agreed to my request?

Me: I promise u that i will nt go

The sorrows in her eyes is the pain i can feel in my heart and i really feel helpless at times...

Bro zerofighter, I hav quoted out the important points in yr post that show u

hav 越陷越深 into this kamcheng liao.

She's starting to compare u with her hubby, what u will do for her and wat

her hubby will not.

By the time things happen, she's no longer yr soulmate liao.

Any bros agree with what I say ?

I predict it will be Yvonne to start everything as they progress…

[simifly]

hurting her is the last thing which i ever want to do.......

Then what if Yvonne one day cry to yr hug saying she regret not being with

last time now she wanna be with u.

Are u ready ?

U won't want to hurt her and also yr family.

U definitely will say she wont do that cos she's a Christian lah, she also won't hurt her family lah………

U never know what test GOD will give both of u this time.

By that time, u even more headache.



Sorry to have spoilt yr trip…

[tiggerboy]

Bro ts, your story really moved me. I'm still young, don't understand much bout love and all.
But after reading your story about you loving her all this while, 20years+(?) really made me think through lots of things.
I just hope the things you do won't bring any trouble back home for both of you as both your wife and her husband might get the wrong idea if they find out about your story and meet ups.
Whatever you do, always remember about your kids first, cause 1 wrong move can cause massive hurt to both your kids and hers, since I come from a broken family.
So try your best bro, and all the best to you. Will be waiting for more of your updates.

[zerofighter]

Then what if Yvonne one day cry to yr hug saying she regret not being with

last time now she wanna be with u.

Are u ready ?

U won't want to hurt her and also yr family.

U definitely will say she wont do that cos she's a Christian lah, she also won't hurt her family lah………

U never know what test GOD will give both of u this time.

By that time, u even more headache.

Sorry to have spoilt yr trip…

As the old saying goes... 苦口良藥... i can fully understand the concerns of yr heart... indeed what u have pointed out is what i will face very soon... sooner than i have expected... These few weeks have nt have been an easy time for me... as even though i did nt cross the boundary with her yet... but emotionally... i have already betrayed my wife.... Emotionally torn apart between the 2 women... one who is my first love and have impacted my life (Without her... i believed that i would have end up in the boys home/prison... would nt have obtained my degree...).... Another woman who is my wife... someone who i have vowed to spend the rest of her life with her...... even at this pt of time.... i have nt forgotten the marriage vow which i have taken... but emotionally i have already betrayed my wife....

Indeed this is a difficult period of me having to struggle with my emotions and
conscience..... every day i have to guard my heart and thoughts... nt to let the emotions get the better of me and ruin the families of both end.... Bros be with me k... I have chosen a path of difficult love... feelings which can only be hidden but cannot be revealed to her.... a path where i need to give.. but at the end of the day... things will still come to to an end eventually... but for the sake of Yvonne.. i really cant leave her alone now... especially when she is now hurting...

Sorry bros as i am unable to pen my thoughts well now.. as my heart is in a deep turmoil again.....

At this point of time... at this point of space...Perhaps this song can well describe my feelings....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqXmvmtICOc

I will be very careful... That is the only way nt to hurt her or anyone.......

[ben2011]

Good to see u back...

Hmmm... Must be struggling right? Hope u can do it wisely.
After all, ur wife didn't do anything wrong to u

Be with Yvonne, support her, and let yourself suffer alone. Can u do it?
It's not easy but I believe when come to this moment, we as a men, must bear with it.
Support Yvonne and don't hurt ur family and her.

Bro, is this story is in the past or still happening now?

[zerofighter]

Bro ts, your story really moved me. I'm still young, don't understand much bout love and all.
But after reading your story about you loving her all this while, 20years+(?) really made me think through lots of things.
I just hope the things you do won't bring any trouble back home for both of you as both your wife and her husband might get the wrong idea if they find out about your story and meet ups.
Whatever you do, always remember about your kids first, cause 1 wrong move can cause massive hurt to both your kids and hers, since I come from a broken family.
So try your best bro, and all the best to you. Will be waiting for more of your updates.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keep no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoice with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

1 Corinthians 13:6-8

Hope this is one of the christian verse which i love alot.. ( No worries.. i am nt trying to spread my faith here... everyone is entitled to their own beliefs)... Hoped that this verse will benefit u too....

[zerofighter]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nRJkOQKl788

Maybe u wanna say this to her bro

Bro... how i wish i can say this thing to her... but i cant....... it is too late... we r both married.... but i love this song.. Thanks bro....

[zerofighter]

Good to see u back...

Hmmm... Must be struggling right? Hope u can do it wisely.
After all, ur wife didn't do anything wrong to u

Be with Yvonne, support her, and let yourself suffer alone. Can u do it?
It's not easy but I believe when come to this moment, we as a men, must bear with it.
Support Yvonne and don't hurt ur family and her.

Bro, is this story is in the past or still happening now?

Bro it is happening now... rite after the last meet up with Yvonne at the beach.. we have been contacting each other... i am giving a update of what is going on for the past few weeks...

[zerofighter]

Good to see u back...

Hmmm... Must be struggling right? Hope u can do it wisely.
After all, ur wife didn't do anything wrong to u

Be with Yvonne, support her, and let yourself suffer alone. Can u do it?
It's not easy but I believe when come to this moment, we as a men, must bear with it.
Support Yvonne and don't hurt ur family and her.

Bro, is this story is in the past or still happening now?

Yup u r rite.. my wife did nt do anything wrong... Under no circumstances would i allow my emotions to get the better of me and ruin the families of both end... and hurting Yvonne!... I will nt allow this thing to happen... no way... thanks bro for yr kind reminder... Yup i will take the suffering alone as we r men... thank goodness i still have this keyboard... this forum and brothers who will support me during this hard period of time... have to go now.... today will be long day with meetings and discussions....

[Tai_zi21]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZUYQ9bIwok

Suitable song for u too bro

[zerofighter]

Bros.. back to the story... still have some time before the next meeting... Gosh i am really drained out out now.. these Shanghainese clients really hard to please.. Anyway back to the story....

Yvonne: I am sorry to make u promise on this issue...
Me: No worries.. ... this is nt important... what meant to me is how u feel....
Yvonne: Thanks for always sparing a thought for my feelings....

Again there is a short pause as she is abit emotional.... ( So i choose to be silent... allow her to have some space to herself ba...)

Me: Is he often away for business trips?...
Yvonne: Yup.. i ever hardly c him more than 7 days in a month... and even he is in Singapore.. he will nt stay at hm for long... always going out till late nite....
Me: Have u ever have a tok with him... After all u still need him emotionally by yr side at times...
Yvonne: I have tok to him already.. always the same excuses.. that he is working hard for the family to give us a better life... blah... tell me to understand him... but i dun need much in life as i am also working and earning well too...
Me: It must be hard for u all these years... ( I look at her tired face.. she have lost the smile in her heart already... and my heart really aches for her...
Yvonne: Guess that i have placed my happiness in the wrong hands of this man....

This statement of her really stab me deeply in my heart.... how i wish i can just hold her hands and comfort her... or just give her a hug... but i cannot do that..... i cant... i told myself..... and i dun even dare to look straight into her eyes....

Soon our lunch meeting ended and she have to rush off to the office again....
Feeling helpless and emotionally tired... i headed to the car park... and went home to pick my kids... as promised.. i brought them to the beach... The smiles on their faces really lightened my heart... and seeing the laughter at the beach really cheer me up... i spent the evening with them building sandcastles and watching the sunset together... my kids love the beach as much as me.. I cherish the moments spent with them as i will be away for business trip again... ( This is one of the regrets which i have... dun have enough time with them at times due to work)...

The day soon ended and i headed off to work on the next day 22/11/13... nt knowing i will meet Yvonne again that nite which will bring me to another emotional struggle.....

Again a short sharing of this piece of music which touch my heart deeply...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jDL5hKxH90I&list=RDITswHbJPHhQ

Richard Clayderman - Invisible love

Hope that u guys will like it.

My love and feelings for her can only be invisible... so that it will nt hurt her in any ways....

Bros sorry for the short input... have to ciao already... Again please bear with my typo errors if there is any... paiseh.. and thanks for standing by me. Appreciate it.

[zerofighter]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZUYQ9bIwok

Suitable song for u too bro

Bro this song is great.... Very emo too.... Thanks bro.