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Originally Posted by Zeelova
From the heart:
At times during the course of "my work", I will meet someone
nice - physically and emotionally. That rocks the sex of course.
When you meet someone who physically satisfy you and your
hearts gets too connected, all you can think of is him.
But there are lines we can't cross and that makes the whole thing
hard to swallow.
Been having sleepless nights over it.
It feels terrible coz I have to know my place. Emotionally the hormones pills makes the whole thing even worse - bouts of tantrums occur and I have to really control myself so as not to cause hurt to people ard me.
Does any of the sisters experience this?
Been keeping myself occupied but really this one the feeling is hard to shake off.
I shared this with a friend who have known me for a long time and is aware of my transition to just enjoy the moment.
He conclude it with:
A straight guy screwing us is different from a gay top screwing.
The straight goes all the way in treating us as a woman while the gay don't see us as woman.
Just a little bit of rant from me - woke up early to complete some chores and end up sitting at a corner crying out - again.
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Good afternoon Zeevola,
Naturally, your heart will be pierced with such a sharp pain when you cannot be in the arms of your loved one. This is what we call love. That explains why you still cannot stop yourself from crossing that forbidden line of no "reciprocal love".
But at least, you did fall in love! Never mind he cannot and will not love you for whatever reasons. Remember, you did love someone and you did enjoy those precious little moments with him, however short it may be.
It is perfectly fine to cry and feel sad. That only shows how much you love him. He does not need to know. As long as you have him in your heart, it is gratifying enough for you to feel strong again.
Hope this Good Friday will bring him back to spend some time with you in his arms again.