My life....

[sweetmilf]

It's 1.30am now. Here I am sitting on the sofa with the tv on but I am not watching it. My husband of 8 years and my 3 year old daughter is asleep in the Master bedroom.
As I am typing, I am having recollections of my past. What I have done and what I regret doing and what I enjoyed doing.
I love my daughter a lot and I guess she is the reason that made me stay in this marriage though I am not happy at all.

A little background info about me:-
I am in my late 30s but I don't look my age at all as I have a what they call baby face. Most would thought that I am in my mid 20s. I am petite in size. Slim build. Ample assets. And I would say I have the right curves at the right places. I get hit on quite regularly if I am alone running errands.
So what's my problem and why am I here, you guys must be thinking because I am asking the exact question also. To be honest, this is my second marriage.

My first marriage ended in a ugly divorce as a result of marrying too young and my first husband had a gf who has a personality of always using tears to get her way. And as a result, a lot of my personal photos including my younger days baby pictures were thrown away without my consent and knowledge. Adding to that, I am being forced to pay my ex a few thousand just to make him sign on some legal papers.

So, at late 30s, I have gone through marriage twice, divorce, birth, abortion, affairs, flings and one night stand....

[kay9788]

Sister ... think u might have too much on your mind ... take some time out. I would be great to hear your stories but somethings might be too private to share??? Just a thought.

[pro.d.igy]

Take a chill pill sis, and take some time to sort out what you are willing to share and what you shouldn't inculde into your story.

In the meantime, will keep track and see what follows.

[corsiar74]

Relax sis. If you willing to share and I'm willing to listen. Sharing is caring.

[mr_missile]

life has it's many ups and downs. hope u remain strong for your lovely daughter's sake.

do continue to share aspects of your life story if it helps to bring back fond memories. try to forget the unhappy moments though.

[wildfantacy]

Stay Strong there sister.. Do hope to hear from u soon

[devan69]

Hi sis looks like we gt accompany here , waiting for more of ur writing

[BiRd13]

Agreed with bro corsiar74... Sharing is caring...
If you don't mind sharing, we don't mind reading, and understand, and perhaps, provide some solution towards the problem you had.

What bro mr_missile said is correct... Stay strong for the sake of your daughter...and to forget the unhappines/sad stuff =)

[mcmc]

Life is not a bed of roses sis , you are the only one that you can take control of your life, take care , you are not alone, i will be here to support you all the way ! Cheers !

[Ravenzou]

Hey sis sweetmilf, like Forest Gump said: Life is like a box of chocolate, got sweet and bitter. You just need to look forward and don't dwell on the past. If u feel the need to let it out then by all means do share with us as some of us here are willing to listen but there are those that will just piss u off. So hope to hear from u soon.

Cheer up !

[DIDI]

many listening ear is waiting to hear more.....sis juz forget the past n look forward...........cheers

[kingrex]

Don't you think after you went so much made you stronger? Life experiences does make one to think and understand better in life and builds up courage and grit. Your daughter is part of you, the child coud not have ask for the warmth of a family. It's not easy to stay in a broken marriage, but ask yourself, it is you or your current husband, for you have admitted affairs, flings and ONS.

[sweetmilf]

I am not the one having the affair. Though I am unhappy, it never cross my mind to have any affairs. The affairs were done by my ex and current husband. As for the flings and one night stand, it happened between the time i was already divorced from my ex husband.
Please read my whole story first before judging me or speculating and putting a chop "adulterer" on my head.
I haven't even finish my story yet. Thank you.

[exskk]

Hi sis, look forward to the furture with your current marriage...enjoy the time with your gal like what i doing now. No point looking back, I used to be liked you thinking about the past but you will be more miserable the more you think about it..

[Ronsee]

Sister (younger) as i m definitely older than you...

I believe life is never fair with everything. In life you achieve some u lose some.

There are never ideals or perfect marriages in life.

I had my first marriage when i was only 26yrs old...than my first wife was a Thai lady who was working her in a massage parlour.

The marriage ended after 2 over years and we were childess but the biggest problem the marriage destroyed my family relationships with my parents and siblings.

When i was with my first wife i really thought she would be the one to give me that perfect life. We had the BEST Sex ever; she was a good cook, good masseuse and gentle..list goes on.

Because of her i almost disowned everyone i knew in my life, at that time i felt my own happiness was the most important. But i was wrong, really wrong.

Anyway sister, i share your feelings and sorrow because i had been through something similiar like you too.

Whatever it is, my advice is to let it all out, talk about it through this forum? or find some good friends and throw out all your anxieties, unhappiness, sorrow and let the wind bring it away. Whatever the situation, rememeber this, life still needs to go on, if not for yourself its for your kids that you have brought into this world.

Be strong and i m sure many Samsters here will be happy to lend you their listening ears.

Cheers
Ronse