When an FL become a

Fl2lover · #1 25-07-2011, 12:25 AM

As gals say, guys can always have sex without love where most gals find the 2 to be inseperable. I guess it is true to a certain extent for me. In my younger days, sex was just sex whether it was with someone you loved or just for deriving the pure physical pleasure and experimenting to see what kinds of different pleasures there are out there. But as time pass and age catches up, I soon find myself not being able to do that anymore.

I am your typical guy that is in the mid 30s being locked in a marriage with kids. The marriage was one that i knew from day one to be a mistake but found myself not having the heart to break it off and hurt my wife. Without revealing too much, it has been basically a marriage without love, tenderness and yes.... Without love making for a number of years. Sure there was the intermittent sex just to get rid of urges once in a couple of months but it was just a quickie and none of the befores and afters tht comes with making love. This situation left me yearning for the sweet feeling of love, to hold someones hand, to hug, kiss and make love to because you cant stop thinking about them and want to be as close with them to become one.

But love is often an ugly business. Ugly business i tell you. It can bring you to the high cloud 7 in heaven and it can also torment you with suffreing worse than the burning puts of hell as i have come to learn.

It all started when i got to know this website and saw all the delicious temptations available to satisfy the lack of sex for me. Eventually, i gave in to that temptation and tried a gal from an okt. She was pretty i guess and young, everything that should get me rock hard and fuck her brains out again and again. But strangely, it didnt turn out that way and we can leave it at me not being able to perform. I first guessed it was due to anxiety trying an fl the first time or the use of condoms which i have not used for a long time. A second and third fl later, the results was the same.

Fl2lover · #2 25-07-2011, 11:31 AM

Just as i was about to give up the whole fl scene, i decided to try one last time with a gal whose description was something that looked everything normal but stressed her cuteness. When we met, i felt a strange connection that i never had with the few before. The session was a total mind blowing experience and boy did i perform.

When i slipped my hand over hers, our fingers wrapped around each other which was rather rare from my limited fl experience. When we kissed, it was soft, tender and ... It was just different from the rest. Most of all, when i wrapped my arms around her, she instinctive responded to hold be back in a way which words just cannot describe. It was a warm loving feeling that i had missed so much. The way we made love was slow, sensual and perfect timing in every stroke, every thrust. The way we fit together was nothing short of perfection. As i slid in her, she stretched to the limit to recieve me and when i pressed into her all the way, i could feel myself hitting the end of her love tunnel leaving no space what so ever between us. At the end of the intense love making, i came with such desperate and uncontrollable urge.

Before i left, she asked me if she would be seeing me again and i told her she can bet her life on it. indeed we soon met again for another session barely a few days later and it was as unbelievable as before. Even though i didnt cum due to tiredness from work, it was still wonderful for me as there was just something about me and her that clicked. So this time i asked her if she would like to have dinner sometime and surprisingly she agreed.

A few days later, we met for dinner. She didnt want to meet at first coz she was on code red, but it didnt matter to me coz it was her that i wanted to see and not just for sex. We had a wondeful time and I found out she was going to quit fl. She was going to pursue a normal job and it just so happened that my professional expertise could help her so i offered tmy tutoring services to prepare her. She was a wonderful gal who had some tuff early years and so when i heard she wanted to move on, i was only too glad to be of help so she wont have to expose herself to the risks of working as an fl.

Fl2lover · #3 25-07-2011, 12:06 PM

I know she has a bf and that they had been together for sometime. I can tell she loves him but the question becomes what then of me. It didnt matter to me coz i guess its only fair since i too am with someone. Besides, i'm not one of those old fuddy duddies when it comes to relationships. What she has with him is between him and her. Whats important to me is how i feel about her and how she feels about me.

As people say, unfortunate things often happen we you are lost in happiness. She had quit fl and wanted to move on but something did happened and she needed to raise a significant sum of money in a very short time. The amount was beyond me to give but i was prepared to take a loan to help her. But she refused and insisted to settle it by her own means. She started working fl again and it really saddened me deeply. I had wanted to help her move on and keep her safe in everyway i can but i just wasnt rich enough to do that. It wasnt that i wanted to make her exclusively mine or something but i wanted to spare her the risks she would have to take again doing fl. I know many of you may think its all bullshit and i just wanna get laid but it isnt. She is special to me as she has given me back that feeling of being in love in ways i cannot even begin to describe. Now she has settled the sum she had to raise but unfortunately again, the new job was taking a set back needing more time before she can start. (mainly my fault for not being a good tutor). So shes continuing to work fl so she could support herself and didnt have to depend on me. Not that she could since like I said I wasn't that rich.

Now all i can do is to worry about her and do my best to take care of her, fetch her home after she's done working when ever i can just to make sure she gets home safe. And thats about all i can do i guess, to be there for her. We still make love but to me now it has become somewhat complicated. After she quit, we made love as lovers. As she was still without job, i gave her money when she needed it to make ends meet. so it was completely apart from and had nothing to do with sex. Now she's working, i just dunno know what i should do anymore. Sometimes i would meet her during her working hrs and made real love to her. But I'm not sure whether at those times should I give her money. If I did, I could come off as treating her like an fl which I'd never. If I didn't I was worried if she was expecting to receive it and think I'm just out for a free fuck. I kinda decided that since I'm taking up her working hrs, I should at least compensate her for loss income so I gave her much more than her rate so that it doesnt feel like a customer paying. But i never really know if shes happy with that arrangement. I know i'm uncomfortable because for the times that i do give her money, no matter the reason i deem it to be, it still feels wrong. I'm no cheapskate trying to get a free fuck but it just so goes against the idea that we are supposedly lovers.

Ever since she started working fl again, she seemed to distance from me and i couldnt help being down. I had moments late at night thinking about us and sometimes it drives me nuts. I even begin to question if she does have feelings for me, what am I to her, what does she expect or want from me and most importantly, what is it I can give to her. No answers come to mind. I have come to care so much for her that it no longer mattered what we can have together be love, lust or whatever. The only conclusion i keep coming back to is that all i can do is to be there for her when she needs me and support her in whatever she does. Let things go their natural course to the end. In time i guess it would be best that she find someone who could be everything for her. I would wish nothing but happiness for her.

Anyone here with comments, advise or anything, I'd be most glad to hear.

RealEstateGuy · #4 25-07-2011, 12:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Fl2lover

As gals say, guys can always have sex without love where most gals find the 2 to be inseperable. I guess it is true to a certain extent for me. In my younger days, sex was just sex whether it was with someone you loved or just for deriving the pure physical pleasure and experimenting to see what kinds of different pleasures there are out there. But as time pass and age catches up, I soon find myself not being able to do that anymore.

I am your typical guy that is in the mid 30s being locked in a marriage with kids. The marriage was one that i knew from day one to be a mistake but found myself not having the heart to break it off and hurt my wife. Without revealing too much, it has been basically a marriage without love, tenderness and yes.... Without love making for a number of years. Sure there was the intermittent sex just to get rid of urges once in a couple of months but it was just a quickie and none of the befores and afters tht comes with making love. This situation left me yearning for the sweet feeling of love, to hold someones hand, to hug, kiss and make love to because you cant stop thinking about them and want to be as close with them to become one.

But love is often an ugly business. Ugly business i tell you. It can bring you to the high cloud 7 in heaven and it can also torment you with suffreing worse than the burning puts of hell as i have come to learn.

It all started when i got to know this website and saw all the delicious temptations available to satisfy the lack of sex for me. Eventually, i gave in to that temptation and tried a gal from an okt. She was pretty i guess and young, everything that should get me rock hard and fuck her brains out again and again. But strangely, it didnt turn out that way and we can leave it at me not being able to perform. I first guessed it was due to anxiety trying an fl the first time or the use of condoms which i have not used for a long time. A second and third fl later, the results was the same.

Brother, you are missing two elements. Intimacy which is different than sex. And you are missing sex. BTW you seem pretty mixed up. Have you considered counseling along with your wife? I mean you two should go together. The last thing we need is a divorced couple as this is hurtful to SG society.

sammyboyfor · #5 25-07-2011, 06:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Fl2lover

Anyone here with comments, advise or anything, I'd be most glad to hear.

Should be "advice". "Advise" is a verb.

I have a comment.... you're a moron.

inlaw · #6 25-07-2011, 08:47 PM

TS, if you know someone is FL, leave her as FL, dont try to change anything ..

Ken79 · #7 25-07-2011, 11:54 PM

While the flame is strong for the both of you - just enjoy the sex and company.
Keep out the KC.

sytloverr · #8 26-07-2011, 01:15 AM

TS, it's true what they say.
ultimately you might've been a momentary bright spark in a her life, and she to yours.
but those who've chosen to walk this FL/WL line.
will continue to do so, irrespective of what you think you/she feels.

enjoy the spark. be thankful you've given that to her.
move on.

PabloEscobar · #9 26-07-2011, 01:40 AM

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Originally Posted by Fl2lover

She was going to pursue a normal job and it just so happened that my professional expertise could help her so i offered tmy tutoring services to prepare her.

There we go again, kee chiu those who have heard this line.

I have heard this line probably a million times, first she will say i want a normal job, next she will say i need money to study.

Mr Nooky · #10 26-07-2011, 05:02 PM

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My 2 humble cents to you bro: Don't fall into it, you have a family to take care. Have fun but be responsible.

Fl2lover · #11 26-07-2011, 08:57 PM

To all that have posted replies, a sincere thanks. Yes, i know i'm a moron. Yes i'm certainly mixed up, and yes i will not forget my duty to the family.

I'm certainly no saint trying to convert all fls here and deny bros their pleasures. In her case, she initiated her quitting and I'm just helping her. Her quitting is clearly something she wanted then as it was evidenced with actions and not mere words. Now that shes back, I'm not forcing her to quit either. Its all her choice and that is all.

I guess you bros are right, had fun, move on. But what i'm moving on from is fls. Retiring from the fl scene. As for her, i guess i will not give her money anymore since shes probably making more than me now. If she is gonna stick around, well then I guess I'll have my answers then. If not, like bro said, it was one heck of a bright spark in life. One so bright it will forever leave a burn mark behind.

But this is a damn good site with tons of interesting stuff so still gonna be an active camper here.

joscklee · #12 26-07-2011, 11:19 PM

Hey Bro,

Don't b another victim, never fall in love with FL. I have a good friend in deep s**t now..

Fl2lover · #13 03-08-2011, 11:51 PM

Drank too much. Down. I guess its over. Its like i've always tried to keep open about her working but i guess + the bf its just too much. Its like weekends for the bf is something i cannot complainn since he is after all her bf. Weekdays is always cusyomers so where does it leavetime for me? None i guess.

Fl2lover · #14 04-08-2011, 12:35 AM

I guess bros here are right in a way. Falling for a fl is never a good thing. Even if you can set aside everything eles about hre past, what about the rpresent? What kinfda of guy doenst mind his gal being used by other men? If he doesnt mind it ony mean he dont love her or he must be a Fiking stupfock son og botch. Probbably got a syphillis infection that gone up brain. Hahhahaha.

Fed up with work, fed up with life.

alan0338 · #15 04-08-2011, 10:13 AM

dun worry TS, will be over in no time